Lori_7 said:
With me, it started subtle, and would become more intense at certain times...depending upon me.
Does it become more intense when the medication wore off?
It always depends upon me...I'm very aware of the fact that I determine the extent of my relationship with God.
So you're in charge and not your God? I'd have thought God being God, he/she/it would determine the extent of your relationship.
Sometimes it's like an implanted thought, sometimes an epiphany, sometimes an answered prayer,
Ooook. Some people view such things as being the result of an over active imagination. Others who experience such things are in fact schizophrenic. And others still are found to have multiple-personality disorder.
and there was this one time when He yelled at me...which startled me.
And why wouldn't it? After all, if the voices in your head are yelling at you, it would be a frightening experience.
It wasn't in anger...He was just trying to get my attention...and it worked.
Tapping you on the shoulder just wasn't working for him/her/it huh?
SL, I have objective confirmation. That's how I know. It's in the form of my life. And I'm going to share it. And it will be confirmed...by a platinum selling rock band. Ha. You want to talk about waiting for answers? This happened to me a year and a half ago...this miracle...and I'm still waiting on the physical manifestation motherload. But this has been and will be a life-long journey.
Is this the thing about the rock star again? Was that you or someone else who had this thing for a 'rock star'?
I actually do think that schizophrenia is a spiritual manifestation.
You know, many schizophrenics who have been accused of murder and other horrid crimes also define it as a spiritual manisfestation. The son of my parents best friend once dangled his body over a 3rd floor balcony railing when we were both children (I was 12). I still remember standing there in absolute horror, not daring to move, scream or call out to him or anyone else lest he fell off the side. All I could actually do at the time was to stand there and whisper to him to come towards me (I was on the balcony with him and not 3 floors below). He had not been diagnosed as a schizophrenic as yet... that diagnosis came one month later when his parents decided that his behaviour was not normal for a boy his age (he was 13). When he came down off the railing, and I literally hugged him, grabbed his hand and dragged him inside where our parents were having coffee totally unaware of what had just transpired, I asked him what in the hell made him do it. His reply was that it was as though an angel had tempted him to lie down on the railing... he thought it was God.
Schizophrenia is NOT a spiritual manifestation. It is a disease that if left untreated can result in pain and death to the sufferer and at times to other people as well.
And finally, I could have never in a million gazillion years imagined in my wildest dreams what God has done for me. I just don't have that good of an imagination. I don't think that anyone does. He's blown my mind
You'd be amazed at how vivid an imagination can be. It's not God that has changed your life, made you give up drugs, tobacco, drinking, etc. That was you. You did that. For goodness sake woman, have some credit in your own abilities.