Hey Signal, Thank you that is helpful.
While I am here let me just say that I am not having any doubts about not believing. How could I, one either believes or does not. Anything else is academic. However, what I am trying to source for is if there is something beyond my reasoning ability which has eluded my process of thinking. Nothing thus far has led me to believe so.
Here is a recurring thought that I have: the evidence - demonstrable evidence - is that the bible which every believer refers to, is written by man... A Roman. It seems that with the empire in shambles he used the bible to spread the greatest empire - the Roman Catholic empire. So its pretty certain that the religion is false and anyone claiming that the only way to God (if there is souch a thing) is thru him deserves to be crucified. However, the bible doesn't glorify the existence of god it glorified the worship of a Jerusalem man. Does it not? Look at the mass, does it worship god or a man? So lets take one thing as fact - the catholic faith is ... well off the mark. Now if that is so, then the religion that follows that and believes in the return of Christ must also be false. So thats 2 religions out of the park.
The old testament is full of horror making the original Abrahamic religion scarry at the least - so thats the third religion thats gone! Then there are the other multi-theistic deities and other asian religions which started as philosophies.... Anyway, with extreme respect to all of them, I don't buy one iota of any of it.
The universe as we live in it and what little we are exposed to and enjoy is so much more beautiful than whatever description of heaven any of these books have to offer - including the 70 virgins theory - so I am an atheist because I want to live my life here and now not sitting on my patutie waiting to live life when i am worm food. I am an atheist because mere logic I poses at this point allows me to deduce that a god doesn't exist and that i am here by chance - which makes me really fortunate and I should live every moment to its fullest potential. i choose to live life happy and without hurting another - not because I am guilted to it, but because I have better things to do. I am an atheist because i want to teach my kids demonstrable truth - I cant do that with religion and I have no interest to raise them in a world of guilt and obligation. Free Will Rules!!!