witnessjudgejury said:
First, if the world was a heavy weight then how does God who is light hold it in space. You must be thinking of the God Midas. When I was young, I carried the world on my shoulders, you apparently have no idea of my stature or how tiny my little shoulders are.
I was speaking figuratively but it is a common symptom of your condition to literalise everything that is said to you. As to your stature, you are just a man. No more, no less. It is not good for man to be alone. We need help. We can help eachother. However you are resisting help prefering to believe instead that you are something special and it is everyone else who needs help. This is a common symptom of psychosis and perhaps it's most wicked symptom as it cuts you off from the love you need from others.
Second, the world is a Garden. This Garden has been overrun with weeds such as yourself. People who feel it necessary to bring others down.
Again you are not my judge WJJ. I'm sure I have been the worst kind of person at times but I have repented and I do my best to be grateful for what I have and share what I have and live a life that I believe would be pleasing to God. Sometimes I get wound up and say hurtful things still, but rather than relishing in the pain my words cause others, these days I cannot wait to make peace and do something positive to bring healing to the relationship. Forgiveness is good stuff. I thank God for showing me that.
If you need me to be blunt about your self-deception you only need to examine the last quote. You try to
'put me down' by calling me a 'weed', saying that 'people
who feel it necessary to put others down' are the 'weeds' that are overunning this Garden. I am not trying to put you down however WJJ. I am just aware that speaking the truth and being honest is the best policy, and you appear to be suffering from psychosis. If you had a broken leg and I said 'hey man it looks like you have a broken leg', would you consider that a 'put down'?
There is much stigma attached to mental illness and this fact is a great shame. However there are people out there who have studied the causes of psychosis and they feel the way about your mind as a doctor would a broken leg. They just want to use their skills to help your mind heal and set properly.
Thirdly, I no longer worry about anything at all.
But others are worried about you aren't they? They are worried about you because they love you.
Fourthly the world is only mundane to depressing people like you.
I didn't say I was depressed. I said life was a struggle. Endurance produces character. Not worrying about anything would never lead to overcoming the frustrations. We wrestle with our frustrations that we may overcome them and be better characters for it.
Your breath is a miracle, but the life you have after your breath is gone is a miracle of miracles.
Sounds like a suicide's mantra. WJJ, you do have a real important purpose here. But I'm afraid that on the face of it it is rather mundane. Jesus was excellent at pointing out this fact. He said that if you want to be the greatest, the most special, you have to become like the least, like one who would happily wash another's feet. Jesus was very practical in this regard, indeed putting his money where his mouth was and picking up the wash clothe and the bowl and doing the business with his disciples feet. A very very mundane act in the context I mean it but a holy and beautiful act in an entirely different context.
Open your eyes and I promise you will not find things mundane.
Being 'Holy' is mundane by this world's standards. It means washing eachother's feet, being humble, taking the back seat rather than jumping in the front, yet the blessings received from adopting such an attitude is one of true peace. True peace is not mundane spiritually speaking. True peace is the 'holy grail' of almost every religion/meditation at it's core.
Unfortunately you have done the unforgivable and lost your soul forever.
Well I am afraid that is not so. They keys of life and death do not belong with you WJJ. You are just a man. Like me. A forgiven sinner. Like me.
You really should pay attention to whom you are trying to bring down.
I am not trying to bring you down WJJ. If you were 'true' you would see that I am just pointing out you have a broken leg. Nothing to be ashamed about. I have been in much worse states mentally speaking and I needed help too.
Please take the time to consider my post 'without prejudice'. I would not waste my time if I did not consider it important.
peace
c20