It's just not your time yet. I can't speak for you or God. Everyone's is different.
It is statements like that which only prove to severely discredit your argument and leave one to conclude your beliefs are but mere fantasy.
Nonetheless, there are two options to your un-answer. My time will occur before my death or my time will not occur before my death.
If it does occur, why has it not occurred yet? I am in no less want to know god than you or anyone else. Why must I wait? If a god does exist and he did in fact create me, then I have every right to know him. Yet, he goes on ignoring my pleas and instead selects you to wallow in his glory.
If it does not occur, I have wasted my entire life with reality, all the while waiting for my time to know him. Again, are we not all equal under god? Do I not have the same right to know him as you?
Perhaps then, it may occur after my death, in which I have once again wasted my entire life with reality, never having been given the knowledge of god, not being able to share that which you have been given.
And of course, after my death, when I stand before my creator, what then shall I do?
I'll be sent to the fiery bowels of hell forever to be bitten and scratched in the netheregions by snagle-toothed varmints simply because I did not know god and instead used reality as my guide through life.
You won't answer these questions as you won't answer questions as to how exactly you came to know god.
So, I ask god for his knowledge and get nothing. I ask others who claim to know god, how they came about knowing him, and again get nothing.
I was at a place ("a pretty "rock bottom" kind of place") where I felt like my life experience had forced me to have to know the truth.
The "truth" is that you have a set of problems to deal with, which is by no means any reason to believe a god exists. You have simply chosen to escape your problems, and you have chosen Christianity as the escape.
I didn't necessarily consider those things to be vices when I came to God.
That is only because you didn't realize that they were. It would also conclude you never thought of them as self-abuse issues, either. And they have all the ear-marks of an abusive childhood.
God has never helped me make a change in my life that I didn't sincerely ask Him to help me make, and did so because it was something that I really wanted, based upon knowledge that came from life experience
Or, you simply made the changes yourself. Can you actually show god had anything to do with them?
it's downright impressive. Right?
No, it's downright pathetic that you would waste your life in this manner. It's probably a result of the abusive childhood, but that is no reason to not deal with the problems and instead attempt to learn something rather than accepting the easy way out.
"Switching to Christianity"....what does that mean exactly? I don't get it. I've never been indoctrinated, just born again.
Born again = switching to Christianity. Do you get it now?
He's answered the questions that I've asked of Him, not out of a book, but through my experience. Understanding changes things. My biggest problem was that I didn't know God. Now I do. Problem solved. It's reasonable.
What experiences? How did it occur? Understanding what changes?
You spew this nonsense continually, yet cannot answer any questions in its regard.
You are little more than preaching and you know nothing of what you preach.
Tiresome and pointless.