Been there.
Read a lot of books, possibly (though actually not that many compared to how many there are), they were interesting, but they were books.
What some of them appear to be saying is something like: "by all means read this, but do not expect to find answers here, the answers are things you know already", or something. Apart from the polemics and guilt-trips they sometimes throw at you.
Forgive me for exprssing myself so badly. First burn all books other than the Bible. Now, don't just read your Bible. Stop every five minutes for so and pray for guidance. Then relax for five minutes, emptying your mind of all thiughts nd wait for guidance. In this way , you should get through the Bible in about five years. Be warned, spiritual knowledge does not come easily to us sinners.
You may have to repeat the above exercise four or five times. Allow about twenty-fve years nd you will get your reward. It goes without saying that you should avoid distraction, so no TV, newspapers or other non-spiritul material, I found it helpful in my early days to past an inspirational holy picture over my TV screen.
Waste no more time; start now !