i was thinking last night about how i said that god isn't nice and has fucked me all up at times, and i want to explain...
god doesn't care about "nice". god is not a scapegoat for your mistakes, or problems, or sin, or your own will. and god is not some genie in a bottle waiting to grant you wishes.
god is like the military in a way. he will break you down, and then build you back up, the way he wants you to be, which is in fact, the way you should be. this is an extremely difficult and painful process that not many people are willing to go through.
i was listening to a song once, and in the lyrics, the man said that he saved the pieces of his broken heart and ground them to dust.
then god said to me that he would take that dust, apply extreme pressure, put it through the fire, and over time, it will become a diamond...multi-faceted, brilliant, flawless, and indestructible. he said that if the pieces had not been ground to dust, the diamond would not come out flawless.
so then, does grinding your heart to dust, applying extreme pressure, being put through the fire, over a lifetime, sound like a fun or appealing process to anyone? is this different from what you might like to think that god does for people?
god doesn't care about "nice". god is not a scapegoat for your mistakes, or problems, or sin, or your own will. and god is not some genie in a bottle waiting to grant you wishes.
god is like the military in a way. he will break you down, and then build you back up, the way he wants you to be, which is in fact, the way you should be. this is an extremely difficult and painful process that not many people are willing to go through.
i was listening to a song once, and in the lyrics, the man said that he saved the pieces of his broken heart and ground them to dust.
then god said to me that he would take that dust, apply extreme pressure, put it through the fire, and over time, it will become a diamond...multi-faceted, brilliant, flawless, and indestructible. he said that if the pieces had not been ground to dust, the diamond would not come out flawless.
so then, does grinding your heart to dust, applying extreme pressure, being put through the fire, over a lifetime, sound like a fun or appealing process to anyone? is this different from what you might like to think that god does for people?