I'm sorry. I have to tell you something. You know you have something in you that you've not been able to come to know. Actually that's true, you've been a catholic (universal?). Oh my dear, you were just a member of a catholic church before. But most probably, you're not a member of the catholic faith since you've indicated that when you're in your childhood. Well, in your teenager, maybe you have known some of the biblical concepts of religion. So you thought you were a christian. Christian??? Oh No! You have never been a christian my friend. Sorry. Laten teen, you're a baptist? How many people were you able to baptize? Oh my dear, you're just a member of that faith. And I don't know if your church were adhering to John the Baptist's ministry. Atheist now. Oh how come. Now??? I guess you have always been an atheist from your ancestral home. Don't panic. You have still the chance to decide because as I realize, you have not yet in the act of verifiable decision.