superluminal said:L,
My last post was sincere. No joke. My frustration runs so deep on this subject that it hurts. Can you understand?
Yea, I can understand. I actually admire you for praying with such honesty. I've been so frustrated at times that I've given God a piece of my mind...totally unleashed frustration...cussed Him out. Afterwards, I've felt pretty stupid and guilty and apologized for being disrespectful. He said that He agreed that I was disrespectful in my demeanor, but He also said that it took a lot of faith to cuss Him out. Which made me laugh...made me feel better. That's how He is.
I wish that I could give you all of the answers that you're looking for, but I can't. I can only tell you that I know who can give you those answers. God can. And with a prayer as passionate as the one above, I think you're well on your way.