It is my belief that the struggle of our existance (nowadays anyway)is our own personal struggle with our sense of worthyness..or more to the point a struggle against our feelings of worthlessness,
Wow, that must suck to have been brought up that way. I'm surprised you cling to a religion that denigrates you so. I guess it's battered wife syndrome.
Not every one has that struggle. I've always had a sense of my own inherent worth and the worth of others, even you.