Maybe for you it was. It was not for me. It was frustrating as hell because you do not listen. At least not back then. As much as you want to say you don't, you shoved your opinion and tried to get me to change me because of a belief you have. I felt like your science project sometimes instead of a friend when it came to that. You sure the hell didn't care what I was saying, only that you could prove what you felt was your point/belief.
that's ridiculous and you're not being fair at all. like i said, the ONLY reason we discuss these things at all is because we met on a discussion forum, and you actively engaged me in these conversations. you were just as willing if not more to debate these things than i. i could also say the same thing in regards to your inclinations to bash me because i'm a christian. i suppose you don't recall how you attacked me when we first met. how convenient for you.
So you figured you would try to find out what it was like to be a homosexual so you thought you would get that education by watching a lesbian porn flick? That's just fucking and those girls probably aren't true lesbians anyway, just paid actresses. There is a whole lot more to it. IF you truly wanted to understand your source shouldn't have been a lesbian porn, Lori. Perhaps some good documentaries which spoke what it's like, etc...but porn, really?
no, i wasn't trying to find out what it was like to be a homosexual. i would imagine it's not much different than being a heterosexual. the thing is that i had never really questioned sexuality before. my sexuality when i was growing up was whatever wouldn't piss off my dad, and that meant white men. then as i got older it became drug addicted unemployed rednecks. i was a drugaddictedunemployedredneckexual. and now i consider myself a practicalsexual. i have absolutely no idea why people jump through hoops trying to simulate vaginas and simulate penises when the real thing is out there, and i have no understanding of how it can all come down to one inherent physical attribute when there are so many important things to consider in a relationship.
anyway, what i was doing was testing myself to see if when i looked at a woman who was being grotesquely displayed as a sex object would i get sexually aroused. the answer was yes. now then, i bet you think that means i'm a bisexual don't you? no, it just means i'm not jaded and believe the kind of lies that many people tell themselves, which is that women are unattractive just because they're women, and men are unattractive just because they're men. it's just not true. it's a fucking lie.
Oh please with the discrimination.
what else would you call it? you are eliminating approximately half of the human population because they posses a god given physical characteristic that ironically is necessary for you to have coitus, and that you have to then substitute dildos or fingers or whatever the hell you substitute for it. it makes no sense. you may as well say that you won't have sex with anyone with blonde hair, or a big nose, or black skin. it's ridiculous.
So, what you're saying is that because your belief that homosexuality isn't "ideal" in God's eyes that my relationship is in a cesspool and we are just another maggot? wtf? You want to nitpick your relationship isn't "ideal" in God's eyes either because your divorced and your ex husband is still alive so you are still living in sin. I mean really? Nobody is superior here. People are people.
i'm saying that nothing in this world is ideal. i'm saying that you probably have some really good reasons why you're a lesbian, and that those reasons wouldn't exist in a perfect world full of perfect people. that's what i think.
I was never taught that being a lesbian was normal. My father told me it was bad very bad.
i'm sure he did. i wonder what he thinks about what he's done.
Quit being obtuse! I was not saying a man would feel his own body was gross, you left out the part where I said the idea the thought of a guy having sex with another guy, there are some guys that are repulsed by that thought, there are some that would say no way Jose. You cut them slack and dog on the homosexual because you always go back to your default statement by saying how heterosexual good homosexual bad.
no i don't. i think that sexuality, hetero or homo, is a load of romantic bullshit.
OMG, first, I highly doubt you have a butt load of true gay friends....secondly, I bet you haven't spoke to them like you had me. Do you realize the conversations we've had is because you drive me insane with you trying to have changed me back then. But you don't get that, you'll never get that.
omg i've worked in restaurants for over half of my career, and yes i do and have had plenty of gay friends that i love dearly and they love me. and that was my point...no i have not spoken to them the way i have to you, and they have not spoken to me the way you have to me. the reason being, we didn't meet on a discussion forum where YOU jumped my ass for being a christian and proceeded to bring the topic up, not appreciate my response, and then want to argue with me about it ad infinitum.
