The OP interestingly adopts a stance that seems to take Mr. "Hermogenes" (what a name!) at his word.
It's perfectly conceivable that this particular religious person, Mr. "Hermogenes", is wrong about his theology.
Sort of mangled with this problem in the OP's first post is a rehash of the perennial problem of theodicy. I don't mind revisiting that problem, but it's a little annoying to see it rehashed with an impatient fervor that seems oblivious to the fact that people have been wondering about it and offering solutions and refutations of it for not just centuries, but millennia.
Bottom line: Either the fact of evil ruins your ability to open your heart to the divine, or it doesn't. It is exceedingly unlikely that you are going to be the first person in 3,000 years to suddenly come up with a solution to the problem of theodicy. No amount of philosophical exploration and argument will likely be able to change the mind of a person who's set on bringing against God the charge of Aggravated First-Degree Non-Existence by Reason of Bad Things in Life.
(Aside from that existential bottom line, the problem of theodicy is an interesting philosophical/historical subject to explore.)