"Adder, I don't give a crap if you don't want to talk about it with the others." I said
"hmphh." he said
"Look, as cliched as it sounds, I'm your friend, if you need anything tell me. I'll keep this between us." I said
"Friends." I said putting out my hand
he shook it "thank G-d, I can't stay mad for even a day." he said
"Yah, I guess I cracked first." I said
"Seriously, I'd prefer if you kept this between us." he said seriously
"Alright, but Adder, I don't need you crapping out on me in a fight." I said
"But Adder, if this is anything at all similar to my drive, which it looks like it is. You'll start feeling the symptoms, sooner rather then later. It tore me apart." I said
"Well, if little old glass skull tori can do it, then so can I." he said
He patted my shoulder
then I got lurched forwards into a vision.
"What is this?" I thought
"Hey! who's there?" I heard a voice
"Adder, is that you?"
"Yah its me tori, what is this?" he asked
"sooner rather then later." I said referring to what I had said before.
The vision sharpened, I saw him, on the other side of what looked like a mountain. Suddenly we were on the ground, it was snowy, there were foot steps. We twisted around to see a large black figure, humanoid, with a shiny red mask, loaded down with guns, missiles and grenades.
He walked past.
I know this place! This must be everest base, and that must be... me. I remember this moment!
The figure wasn't apparently able to see us. "Who's that?" Adder asked
The... me... in the nanosuit sat down and leaned against a rock. He took off his mask and goggles, and it was my face, a more weathered face from many years of warfare.
"Tori, that's, that's you!" Adder said gaping as he was standing in front of the figure trying to get a better look. "...dude, you look like a badass!"
I definitely remembered what this was, how could I forget.
"What are you doing here?!? What is this?!?" he said pointing at the suit.
"There's some things Adder." I said
"What?!?" he exclaimed
"I know a lot of things Adder, I know a lot of things I don't want to know, there are things I've seen Adder." I said
I looked at him, with the eyes of someone that shouldn't be here, shouldn't be alive.
I sat down, leaning on the rock, right next to the other me in the nanosuit. I was depressed now.
He looked a mixture of shock, surprise, and understanding.
"So I get it, whatever this was, it was crap, lowest point of your life." he said "we all have bad patches."
"This was one of the highest points in my life. That's why I hate it." I said
I pointed with my hand casually to the right, his eyes followed my hands. They lead them off the side of the mountain, across the valley a few miles, to a basin covered in snow.
"There's nothing there, I don't get it, what's so important? There's nothing there." he exclaimed
"Adder, its what used to be there, and if this is the point in time I think it is, its been no more then an hour. Its what used to be there that matters. What lies under twenty feet of snow." I said
"Alright, so what USED to be there, what was so important that its buried in snow now?!?" he said angrily
"Adder, if I told you that, you would never forgive me for what I did, for what I've done... for what I continue to do." I said
"What?!? Just tell me." he said
"Were done" I said, I put my hands together, concentrated, the phased particles coarsing through my veins and arteries disrupted and dispelled the illusion. We were both back in reality, almost no time had passed.
"Adder, its okay if you tell them what you saw, either way it doesn't change the past." I said
"How can I do that?" he said sarcastically "its what I didn't see that matters"
We chuckled.
He left after that.
What he saw, what I had to live through again. It was the first operation from Everest base, to attack and destroy a holian military base. It was where I literally bashed the brains out of Adder's father. It took a mere fifteen minutes to eliminate the base, and another thirty to cover it under twenty feet of snow, leaving no trace. That ridge, I sat there to relax, from the carnage and death I just inflicted.
I punched the wall so hard I drew blood. As I said before, if Adder knew what was under the snow, he would never forgive me. Under twenty feet of snow, was his dad, and he was unwittingly standing over his informal grave.