I don't disvalue this life at all, but I don't love worldly things like you guys.
Surely God put those things here to be loved and appreciated? If not what's the point in him putting them here? Just to be ignored? Man i can sit out in a field all day long watching the wind rustle through the trees, watching birds flitter among the golden buttercups and kids playing with pure innocence under a warm and glorious sun. You instead give the love to something unseen, unrpoven. To me this is putting lack of value on life. How do you know when you get your eternal life you'll ever see a sunset over a sandy beach ever again? How do you know you'll be able to have kids and nurture them and love them as individuals instead of as a 'big package of god'?
If i were a religious man like you i'd love everything simply because God had created it. I'd even love watching millions of people die knowing my one true love, (God), had been the inspiration for it happening. I'd love everything as if i'd seen it for the very first time in my life.
I'm not searching for meaning in life either
Of course you are. If you weren't you wouldn't be human and you wouldn't be religious.
The reason you don't want to be a Christian is because you don't want to fight your sin
Sounds to me like only Christians want to rid themselves of sin? Much that it's a great advertising campaign i wouldn't say it belonged exclusively to Christians. In my opinion that's an extremely naive attitude to have.
As for sin... Sure i fight it. The other day i called my wifes sister a retarded fuck bubble. I feel real guilty about it, and my wife was a bit upset with me. I have learnt to live with my sin and work out why i sinned, and how to prevent sin. The answer to that is not as simple as believing some all powerful being will forgive me if i sing kumbaya. It's a lot harder to understand and accept responsibility for your actions than to get forgiven by an invisible bystander.
And I'm not afraid to die like you guys.
This isn't about being afraid to die... but as far as im concerned if i have an eternity in heaven some delay in getting there is no big deal. As such i like to make the most of my time here. I'm not quite ready to be separated from my daughter, wife or friends. I might meet up with them later- (notice the word 'might'), or i might not... but without being presumptuous enough to just assume i will, i like to keep my bases covered. If i dont at least i got to spend time with them during my mortal phase and if i do i still had a nice time with them during my mortal phase. Who's to say some of them might be sent to hell for bad deeds so i'd never get the chance to see them once we're all dead or vice versa? As such i'd like to spend some time with them during my mortal phase and have no wish to die quite yet.
By no means will I commit suicide. I'd like to help lead others to the Lord while I'm here.
What if they commit suicide because of your never ending attempts at making them believe as you do? Who's to blame for that? You or them?
I may not value this life
Strange... your very first sentence was:
I don't disvalue this life at all
Make up your mind. We spoke in another thread about denial. It has relevance here perhaps.
but I do value my soul more than all of you
I value my soul- which i opinionate as my being. My soul is inside me- learning as i learn, growing as i grow, loving as i love. If you cannot value your own being, how can you claim to value the spiritual essence of your own being?
but your just the opposite because you don't have an eternal perspective.
Who's to say i don;t have an eternal perspective? I sure do i'll have you know..
My thoughts are thus:
If we are to live for eternity after this life i'd rather opt out. I'm sure after 50 million years anything that can be said has been said, anything that can be done has been done. It would become so monotonous and boring that it wouldn't be worth undertaking in the first place. The very reason we have goal, purpose and function in this life is because we all know it will end at some stage. If there is to be no end what's the point in doing anything? I'm sure it can wait until next millennium. Have you really ever sat down and considered the vastness of the word 'eternal'? If you really consider it does it sound like such a wonderful thing?