The Alien abduction phemonon is REAL, it happening to thousands of others, like yourself, and all share similar characteristics, and you have the described some of the quintessential attributions. So, the possibility, that your account is REAL is a viable hypothesis. Now, I understand, calling your trauma and experience, a possibility,is hogwash to you, as the reality you percieve, and emotions you undergo, are nothing but the truth to you. I am actually inclined to believe this is REAL, as you obviously do not exhibit any of the characteristics of a delusional. You clearly have well defined ideals and morals and think beyond the generality of others. Not withstanding though, it's not conclusive, as there is little evidence to support your claims.