I didn't ignore you, old boy! I have sent emails containing this information to John Mack's people, Budd Hopkins, Ray Fowler and David Jacob's. By the way, Mack's people are found at <http://www.centerchange.org> for anyone interested. I did it anonymously and left an anonymous email address they could send info to. Haven't heard anything back.
Quite a powerful experience there, old girl
You spent 6 years of your life fighting for your life, I've spent 6 years of my life, wondering what to do with my life, and trying to find a purpose worth living for.
It does sound quite similar to the abductions accounts I have read. In women especially, sudden pregnancy, is a typical experience, and certainly a deeply distressing one. There is something that is not quite sitting with me, you said the Doctor examined you, and it became blatantly obvious you are a virgin. That sounds obviously like your Hymen was intact, yet, in 31 years, the Hymen can break for various reasons, bicycling, horseback riding, gymnastics, or vigoruous exercise, or inserting tampons, or while masturbating. In addition, if the Greys have been extracting ovaries from you, and performing sex experiments with you, and most abductees report being forced to have sex with other humans or aliens, then how can your Hymen still be intact, and how can you still be a virgin? Especially considering you actually had a "frogs" egg come out of there. That's a really big hole(no pun intended) in your account. Care to explain?
How many times have been abducted, that you can recall, and how often does it happen? Can you describe an actual abduction in depth to me. If not here, by e-mail, or private messaging?
have learned how to "reintegrate" the fragmented portions of myself and discovered the intricacies of how consciousness and awareness of self evolves.
What have you discovered. Care to explain?
I think this is one of the things the grey's are missing in their search to re-obtain emotion.
How do you know, they have no emotions? If they are purely logical beings even without emotions they should distinguish between good and bad. An intelligent being always chooses good, irrespective of how others percieve their actions.
When they hurt you and violate you, because they percieve you as an inferior species, and consider it logical. Then when they are hurt and violated by another, who considers them inferior, and they oppose it because they consider it illogical - bad. Then is it not illogical - bad - for them to hurt and violate you?
Irrespective of how higher they are than us in the socio-intelligencia- evolutionary- hierarchy they share the common denominator with us of being a conscious physical system. They are subject to the same laws of consciousness and evolution as we are. Thus if they hurt and violate a consciousness organism by the system of logic, then by the same system of logic, there is a contradiction of logic, hence it is was always illogical, which further contradicts their assumption they are intelligent, hence they are not intelligent. Therefore it stands, they do have emotions, and the emotions of hate and prejudice, which is universally bad.
That's a paradox, because an intelligent species whose motivated by hate and prejudice, should not survive technological milestones crucial to technological development - like nuclear weapons.