*************MW-I would suggest that you are just disillusioned. That you based your faith in people and not God was disheartening, I'm sure. Humans are not God, not even near to God. We as believers must place our faith in God, and not in man. Man will always let you down. You know what else I believe, MW? You don't get the choice. Like a child, tugging against his parent. You tug against God with all your strength. Yet, God is there, holding your hand firmly. God will protect you in spite of yourself, MW. Once saved, always saved. Like it or not, I think we'll be hanging out in Heaven. Will you feel silly, then? I hope not. I hope you feel loved. I hope and pray that you will find happiness with God, and that you will return to your faith.
M*W: I had faith in god and in Jesus and the whole idea of the trinity. I understood it, I taught it for a number of years to teenagers and adults. I lived it. To be honest, I've never had that kind of faith in man (figuratively, speaking). I truly believed I was saved and, in fact, I still believe I am saved, strange as that may sound, the only difference in my salvation is what I was saved from--religion. If such a thing happens that I end up in a place called 'heaven,' then I'll deal with it. In the meantime, I just don't plan to go there, because I cannot fathom such a place. Actually, I'm a very happy person who has lived long and loved well. I choose to find happiness in this lifetime and, so far, I have. The mainstay of my 'faith' is in my family. They are the god I believe in.