I won't question your Christianity since each branch of Christianity has a different idea of what a Christian should be and quite frankly each Christian has a different mentality on what it means to be a Christian.Anyhow I'd like to ask a few questions regarding the holy ghost if you don't mind.
Do you feel that this holy ghost have favorites amongst humans? By that I mean how come those of equal faith to yours do not experience special revelations like the one you've mentioned.(2 John) I hear a lot about prayers answered and miracles galore but not the type you mentioned.
i'll be the first to admit that this one particular experience i had (which i've barely touched on in this thread) was fucking weird. so weird, so prolific in volume and meaning that i swear i felt like my head exploded trying to take it all in. i felt like i couldn't keep up, and it was very traumatic. but i don't think for one second i'm the only one who's had intense, weird experiences like this, and i don't think that having such an experience makes me any more or less special than anyone else.
the ultimate goal of christianity is communion. we're not only a communal species, but we're a communal creation. it's something we can't escape or deny no matter how hard we try. it's just the way it is. and what i think is the coolest thing about humanity is that we are all unique. genetically there is, never has been, and never will be, anyone like you, or anyone like me. and i think that we all have roles to play, and destinies to fulfill, and aptitudes and gifts to nurture, and crosses to bear and fears and challenges to overcome. and we all need each other. we're all just as important. if everyone is special. then no one is special.
From what you've posted I assume you know exactly how it feels to interact with the holy spirit and therefore I'd like your opinion on the following.Those scary people at church who say they feel the holy spirit within them while going into violent convulsions and speak supposedly unrecognizable tongues, are they lying? Your revelation, was it in a dream or some other way?
this hits close to home because when i was very very young, i used to go to a church like that with my grandma, and my grandma used to speak in tongues. i didn't appreciate it one bit then, and i still don't appreciate it any more so today.
now, i'm not looking to judge other people, and my grandma's as nice and honest as the next person, maybe a bit more, but as weird as some of the stuff i've been through has been, i have never felt compelled to behave that way. there are two things that really bother me about it. one is that it can be turned on and off like a faucet. you know, these people were fine when they were walking into church and they were fine when they left. it's not like they're pulling some shit like that in the middle of a restaurant or a shopping mall. and secondly, i see absolutely no benefit to it. i see no accomplishment. so if i had to guess, i'd say it's drama.
i have had a few dreams that i would consider prophetic or enlightening, but that's not how i got the message i spoke of in this thread. that was more direct, and like i said, in the middle of a bunch of other weird hoopla that was going on. to be specific i was in the middle of channeling a letter, when god interrupted me and told me to go get my bible and read the book of revelations, so i did. when i got to chapter 12 all of a sudden i felt a presence in front of me. i can't explain how but i knew there was someone standing in front of me (i was sitting on my couch). i felt a tingling sensation on my upper arms. i asked out loud, "_____, is that you?" i was inquiring of the person who was to be the recipient of the letter, and the sensation got much stronger. i took that as a "yes". the sensation moved up my arms to my shoulders, neck, and stopped on my face. when the event was over i picked my bible up off the floor and continued to read, only now it was like there was a wind blowing through my head. that's the only way i can describe it, and i felt like i was being led around the bible on a leash for a little while. i was told i was the woman in chapter 12, then on to 2 john, and then to the very end of the bible where it talks about the tree of life bearing the kingdom population.
Dear lady please keep in mind that I mean no disrespect by the questions I ask, I am genuinely curious.
i appreciate that, thank you. i try to only be a bitch when it's appropriate. lol.