Wow.
Good stuff fellas.
Making people feel inadequate or 'jealous' is a daily thing for me. I have to make an effort to remember this at all times, but I fail often. I have found you cannot be 'fake' about things for very long at all even if you really try, you'll slip up and then you get the 'what are you, a doctor?', 'what are you, a professor?', etc. People trying to fit you into their rather superficial worldview.
Also having things come to you so easily makes you want to quit that and start something else. I know why Leonardo from the town of Vinci quit far more projects in his life than he ever came close to completing. He got bored and wanted something new. The internet is a blessing as you can multitask in so many ways. As I write this I am also helping a vBulletin forum admin(different forum) plug in an HD Youtube call and post button on his forum, and I'm discussing the bible with another person, and movie torrents about how to merge Matroska files into one contiguous video and modify subtitles to sync up with the frame rate.
Others... I remember one day a manager at a FedEX I was installing a new routing and planning computer for, and getting it tied into the FedEX upstream systems had known me for while. He was not intellectual, but pragmatic and wise. I had a lot of respect for him over time. He came into the office with a driver, a young girl who was in a bad way, he simply said 'Where's Mabuse(not my real name)' in a loud voice. I heard him and said 'over here man'. He came over and said 'exactly what would be the symptoms if someone had appendix problems?' I didn't look up from my systems works and described them, also mentioning what would change if one had burst. I then glanced up and saw her with him, and I simply said 'yeah right there where Mandy is pointing on her abdomen, that's it exactly'. She was under the knife for a burst appendix literally within the hour. The fallout from that simple scenario, all except for from the manager, Mandy(who thanked me with a gift after she recovered), and couple of others was not good. Someone said after the manager took off with Mandy and sped to the hospital: "What the hell is he asking you for, you ain't no doctor." After that I was treated differently for the remainder of time there on that gig, I could observe the people who had seen it or heard about it trying to incorporate me into their dim grasp of this world. It was never a positive thing. All over a simple thing like that where I had only tried to answer a question, and in doing so actually helped a girl. A burst appendix can turn deadly fast. I found out later she had fainted out on the dock, and that's when the manager had brought her to find me. On top of that human anatomy is pretty fucking basic stuff.
In many ways I am virtually alone. I can't really discuss much of anything with many people at all. People with higher than average IQ's actually seem to feel more 'threatened'(I guess) by me. Petty stuff of 'who knows more' and etc rear their head. It gets... well it's hard to describe what it's like to be in many ways alone on things. To have to remind yourself to not discuss things, and act... well... 'dumb it down' all the time on every freaking thing.
I used to seek out professors of various topics just so I could discuss things with them freely. Even then I got 'what are your credentials? How do you know this?', but I could have a discussion with them on a topic like history, or physics, or etc from time to time. But of course not for long, and some of them were so petty and became blatantly envious and etc. I remember some professor of eastern philosophy(IIRC) wanting to meet me after I called to find out where I could get a copy of Dogen's Shobogenzo Zuimonki when I was a lot younger. The prof acting like even knowing about that book was some 'high level' stuff only for academics, and how hard it would be for a 'normal' westerner to grasp the stuff she warned me, asking me - yet again - about my credentials and etc. I see them trying to rationalize it/me into their world view instead of simply... well anyway. To her I guess, I made all her effort and time in school to learn about the stuff seem 'less' or something. Which is silly of course.
It get's old and can be frustrating to be virtually alone with your thoughts in so many ways. Then you come to have a poor opinion of people over time. "They're all morons!" will overtake you, but that's not true of course. I have to make an effort to remember that though, to tell myself that people all have good qualities, and to look for them carefully. They are not all morons.
I was told in my teens that it was virtually a statistical certainty I would never meet my intellectual equal in my life, as is true for most exceptionally gifted intellects. A very wise woman kind of took me under her wing and helped me tremendously on 'life' in general when I was a teen, not the intellectual stuff, the real stuff. She became some type of counselor at a university, I continued to visit her from time to time and we'd talk. One day, one of the last times I ever spoke to her, she asked me with tears in her eyes, how would I ever find someone to marry who would understand me?
Man she was wise. I didn't understand then what I do now. She knew, in her wisdom, what lay ahead for me. He that gathers much knowledge only gathers grief for himself. I also remember very clearly things that 'time eases the pain' about for most. The blade that 'holds' the sharp also 'holds' the dull, to use a metallurgical metaphor.
Some of the coolest times of my life was doing systems consulting work at LANL. I could talk for hours with some damned impressive people about all manner of things. I skipped the 'what are your credentials' stuff as best I could. I should have went ahead and taken a job that was offered to me there I suppose, but I liked working for myself and I made good money at it. Many times I have regretted not upgrading my clearance and taking the job though.
I wouldn't trade 'it' for anything... but I would love to be rid of it at the same time. My son was just 'certified' as 'gifted' this year at his shcool and they are wanting him to skip at least three grades in elementary school. I will be there to help him understand the stuff, I didn't have anyone in my family myself.
The Youtube HD button works flawlessly btw, and we have a whole MKV file with sync'd subs for burning.