Counsler,
Your reasoning is not very solid, and I suspect you know that, at least I hope you do. Your real reason, IMHO, which you may not quite yet have grasped, is that you have been looking for an excuse to believe in a god. That is fine, I take the same approach for many of my life experiences. When I am not sure about something I tend to commit to it just to try it out and see if it has any value. And it helps if you can afford it and yes I have lost a lot of money on things that definitely did not work out. But for many things in life there is no way to evaluate something without actually trying it. Committing yourself to a theistic experience seems like the best way to obtain a ‘feel’ for the issues from a different perspective. For example, you can describe sex as much as you like, but until you try it you will have no idea what it is really like.
So go for it and learn. I did the same thing when I was 16 and then became an atheist 5 years later, and that was 30 years ago.
Your reasoning is not very solid, and I suspect you know that, at least I hope you do. Your real reason, IMHO, which you may not quite yet have grasped, is that you have been looking for an excuse to believe in a god. That is fine, I take the same approach for many of my life experiences. When I am not sure about something I tend to commit to it just to try it out and see if it has any value. And it helps if you can afford it and yes I have lost a lot of money on things that definitely did not work out. But for many things in life there is no way to evaluate something without actually trying it. Committing yourself to a theistic experience seems like the best way to obtain a ‘feel’ for the issues from a different perspective. For example, you can describe sex as much as you like, but until you try it you will have no idea what it is really like.
So go for it and learn. I did the same thing when I was 16 and then became an atheist 5 years later, and that was 30 years ago.