Simply put, the recurring refrigerator thing is not normal for an adult.
I thought the fridge was the cause of the noise.
Also I speak in a very very small and quiet tone.
So when someone else comes over it very very loud to me; and I must try to speak on their level, which takes a lot of yelling or something.
Or just getting warmed up, any way you look at it.
So, I guess there's a lot of stuff like this...
Everything that you have described is normal psychological control. It relies on words, vocal cues, facial expressions, body posturing, smell, tone, content and outcomes of previous conversations, defensive sensitivities, thought based simulation of actions and outcomes, etc. There's nothing para-anything about it.
So it is normal psychologicial control to know that others are being controlled by you?
That you can make them shut up or feel bad?
What about fighting for your own presense in their presense.
I really would like to see an acurate description of this; otherwise I don't believe that we will ever. Because you see there is an accurate description of it. What you guys are saying is not accurate. About it all being para this para that, and that it's like we're being forced into a tunnle. I don't like any of that. Then again is there anything I do like?
haha.
How about this: what about being destroyed in your sleep; when you tell your mother about it, she doesn't believe you.
She says that's impossible.
Or when you tell the Dr. it's telepathy that you are doing
Or that he should maybe think you're like a psychic, for all of the un-named events taht you can't describe; being destroyed by others presences; who knows "what" it is....
But I don't see any real evidence to support that the para people are bologinia. I mean, you can't have evidence at the same time as there being a lack of acceptance.
:shrug:
What it does show is that you have a considerable amount of psychological trauma resulting from your family relationships, you are self-isolated, and quite lonely. Your road to recovery is likely going to include alot of intense therappy, finding outlets some serious pent up aggression, and getting social with new people. I suspect that is going to be hard but think about it this way, what better way to get revenge on your dad then to get your shit together and make a life for yourself?
Yeah. I guess he'll eat my words.
That was an explanation of a threat simulation dream (not hypnagogic hallucination).
Sleep paralysis is normal. Everyone gets it from time to time.
There seems to be confusion about what death is. When it happens eventually all cellular activity in your brain stops, memory no longer functions, intelligence no longer functions, awareness no longer functions, etc. There is no experience at all. As an anology it is the same non-experience as dreamless sleep. And once you die, thats it... there is no consciousness for you ever again... and your body will be eaten by bugs and bacteria. So the very fact that you're typing words on a keyboard shows that you are quite alive.
J.B. also replied to this one.
I haven't any real confusion, IMO.
I have experienced just about dying.
You are aware of course,
that when your body runs out of energy, or you aren't able to accept the energy provided to your body you will of course run out of energy, "if you can't accept the energy you die." then you will die...
There is a major problem with that with me.
For example.
If I were to ly back on the floor and pretend for a second that I am not dead, I liky would begin to feel my skull once more and my bones in my arms, and think about all of the things I have done which relate to this.
And I would try my damnest to try and accept the energy on the ground, although I would start to feel I am certain very happy or sad that I "love the world so much"; and I would instincitevly fight losing the energy; even if I "did" want to lose it.
Guess you are right though.
I do have some confusions about it.
Anyway.
no more, I don't exactly feel like elaborataing on a lot of concepts until the moon turns blue.
And Psychoticepisode:
I do not wish for attention.
Unless CC is going to touch some of my "writings."
It is wrong to say that about me, unless you provide some evidence. It perhaps will be funny...
But yeah, para people are weird, but it is IMO a nature to investigate and not to rediculate. Possibly you can do either one. Redicule them, but always be sure that the truth in the end is one worth holding on to?