to xev:
keep in mind what im saying to is not an attempt to change you. im sure you have no compunction about living your life the way you do. i think i did a pretty good job of proving the purely logical actor will live hell on earth, but thats just what makes sense to me. if you seriously can swallow the contradiction between your ethics and your judgments on the religious while maintaining title of "rationalist," more power to you.
like i said, i dont expect to change you. i dont know why im doing this: i think its a way for my subconcious to justify the philosophy im living. yes, im kind of a being a sick, parasitic bastard criticizing your way of living to prove myself to myself. oh well, *pats subconcious* ill keep playing with my head. maybe itll fall off, hopefully.
keep in mind what im saying to is not an attempt to change you. im sure you have no compunction about living your life the way you do. i think i did a pretty good job of proving the purely logical actor will live hell on earth, but thats just what makes sense to me. if you seriously can swallow the contradiction between your ethics and your judgments on the religious while maintaining title of "rationalist," more power to you.
like i said, i dont expect to change you. i dont know why im doing this: i think its a way for my subconcious to justify the philosophy im living. yes, im kind of a being a sick, parasitic bastard criticizing your way of living to prove myself to myself. oh well, *pats subconcious* ill keep playing with my head. maybe itll fall off, hopefully.
actually, rand creates some compelling arguments (i think) on how altruism coopts the individual, on how its a tool to manipulate you into working for society against what your true desires are. kinda too long to cite here. it works well into nietzschean slave morality. nietszche's strong v. weak is turned into the creators v. the parasites. actually, the more i think about it the more youd probably like rand. she takes nietszche's soul and adds logic. shes the closest thing youll ever get to rational existentialism, in my opinion.A: Few people have been harmed by altruism.
good, youre growing. but what will you grow into? another manifestation of society's expectations or wishes for you? insidiously implanted in your subconcious, only to ripen into fruition when you realize the "code of ethics" you're living now is ridiculous? create your own, while you still can.B: This is my provisional morality. I do not intend it to be my final moral system.
no, because youll keep searching and searching for something out there to tell you how to live when you should be looking inside yourself to find the answers. i have no illusions that my own philosophy will change as well, but i do believe i will choose how it changes.n fact, I don't think I'll end up with a "final moral system".
i dunno if i was coherent or not, but thats what i was critiqueing. you love the fact that you are not logical (youre altruistic) and yet you hate people who are not logical (the religious). you hate yourself, then, by that logic, and thats no way to live. if logic doesnt suit your needs, throw it out the window. lie to yourself.(Actually, my pride in my altruism - although I'm not sure it is really altruism - is precisely for the fact that it is not logical - yet)
*shakes head. i think we're operating from different fundamental "feelings" on life. its funny how your feelings, no matter how much you try to stifle them, return to influence you so much. i actually consider suicide quite "noble," not in dying for a cause, but for having the balls to face the question of god, to step beyond the point of no return and find out of the fucker exists or not--while putting your soul on the line. the only reason i havent shot myself is because im a coward, and have no gun. i dont know what a "hell" may be like, and im not ready to find out. as for it being pointless? ??? life is pointless, you lose nothing. and if, as an atheist, god/hell dont exist, then you lose your consciousness/awareness with your existence altogether. no feelings of guilt/remorse/self-loathing. perfect peace in the ultimate negation of yourself.So basically, I am alive because I am a hedonistic athiest. The first time I seriously considered suicide, I decided against because I felt it to be an act of cowardice. The second time, it literally seemed pointless.
what? im sorry, i usually can empathize with everyone i talk to about what theyre saying, but i truly do not understand this statement.Umm, I find pleasure in denying a part of my character....
dont hate yourself, you have red hair now *points to your avatar* lol. seriously though, i think similar in this self-hatred respect. im just sick of it, and im going to turn it loose on the world.I hope very much that you do not feel the self-hatred that I do.