§outh§tar said:
Sorry about the late reply Jenyar. I was making a long post to respond to some people in the meantime.
No problem. If you won't mind a long post in reply...
Do you think apostates are condemned by God?
4For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted the heavenly gift, and have become partakers of the Holy Spirit, 5and have tasted the good word of God and the powers of the age to come, 6if they fall away, to renew them again to repentance, since they crucify again for themselves the Son of God, and put Him to an open shame.
7For the earth which drinks in the rain that often comes upon it, and bears herbs useful for those by whom it is cultivated, receives blessing from God; 8but if it bears thorns and briers, it is rejected and near to being cursed, whose end is to be burned.
(Hebrew 6)
In other words, if they reject what Christ had achieved on the cross. This has nothing to do with how much faith you feel you have, or at what stage of maturity of faith you are in. This section states the sufficiency of Christ to do what he came to do, and the unavailability of salvation outside Him. It also emphasizes what I've said: that Christ
already fulfilled God's promise, and it seems that you expected the same promise to be fulfilled again, in your personal life. Your salvation never depended on your experience of God, or the strength of your faith, but in God's action.
But to extend the metaphor: you haven't received the last rain until you let out your last breath, and your "rejection" isn't complete until that day ("
near to being cursed"). The fruit you will have produced by that time will testify about your
actual decisions, not just your intellectual ones.
Like I said, I didn't exactly go around looking to lose my faith. It is more accurate to speak of my faith leaving me. Just as you cannot, at this moment, willfully decide to stop believing in Jesus, so could I not. And that is the problem I have when Christians here intimate that my apostasy is 'my fault'. I know you used 'people' instead of 'you' but the gist is still the same.
Faith is not an autonomous entity that can leave or arrive by its own will. If God's Spirit was saddened within you, it might have produced those forlorn feelings to make you aware of something. Find "fault" or placing blame is not the issue, what matters is how you responded, and the consequences of that response, which was for you to
renounce your faith. "It" did not "leave" you anymore than a sound leaves you when it is drowned out by something louder.
The miracle I asked for was nothing too spectacular for God. He has specifically promised to give us wisdom and also to be with us till the end of time. Considering this, I struggle to see why He did not at least dip His finger in water and touch my tongue when I was at my weakest and looked to Him most earnestly.
But He did not promise that you will
use this wisdom or
feel His proximity. Neither of these undo what God did through Christ, or affect your security with Him.
Paul also asked God to remove the weakness that often threatened to bring him down:
2 Cor. 12:8-10
Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
He elaborates in Romans 8:
Romans 8:22-26
We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
God's faithfulness does not depend on your strengths, your wisdom, or your experience of circumstances.
There is nothing wrong with expecting miracles from God since a) they fortify faith in an age of skepticism b) God is not tired; He is the same miracle worker of yesteryear; nothing is too difficult for Him.
I contest (a), since miracles are just as likely to have the opposite effect in an age of skepticism (and Jesus himself performed miracles according to faith,
not where there was unbelief) and (b) Miracles were used as confirmation of someone's authority - with purpose, not just because God
can. Once again, not a placeholder for faith. And then there are Jesus' own words:
Luke 4:24-27 "I tell you the truth," he continued, "no prophet is accepted in his hometown. I assure you that there were many widows in Israel in Elijah's time, when the sky was shut for three and a half years and there was a severe famine throughout the land. Yet Elijah was not sent to any of them, but to a widow in Zarephath in the region of Sidon. And there were many in Israel with leprosy in the time of Elisha the prophet, yet not one of them was cleansed—only Naaman the Syrian."
We can't claim divine intervention just because we believe that nothing is too difficult for God. That may be true, but that doesn't mean if something doesn't work out as planned that God couldn't do it. Still less it means that He wasn't
there to do it. Neither can we demand such attention because we think we were on the "inside". We may ask for miracles, but should be just as happy if we receive them by "normal" means.
Your interpretation of Paul's words in 2 Timothy is debatable. The context, rather than pointing to a corporate promise, tells us that the promise is made "to faithful men", and more specifically, "for the sake of the elect". Paul has specific diction in his epistles and he makes exhortations and gives counsels to churches without wordplay and here, even as he wants the message passed on "to faithful men", he is addressing not a nation, or people, but his 'son'. There is nothing in the context which can tell us that "we" refers to the entire body of Christ.
Combine the two thoughts here:
Paul "endures everything for the sake of the elect", and
God remains faithful even though we are unfaithful. The faithful support the unfaithful and the faithless. This was evidently Paul's intention, because he adds "
And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth...". Paul addresses Timothy with people in your situation in mind.
You may not have gotten the wisdom you asked for in a way that you would perceive to be "directly from God", but that doesn't mean it hasn't been made available to you anyway. Paul ends his letter to Timothy with this: "
...continue in what you have learned and have become convinced of, because you know those from whom you learned it, and how from infancy you have known the holy Scriptures, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith in Christ Jesus".
What kind of wisdom did you ask for, that you know you didn't receive it? What kind of faith did you want God to strengthen? You might be getting what you asked for - even while you're without faith - but eventually you will have to
believe what God tells you for that knowledge to mean anything to you.
At some stage, you will have to decide whether you are disappointed in God, or whether you don't believe He exists. The two are mutually exclusive. If you don't believe He exists - or existed even when you thought He did - you are only fooling yourself to think that God "failed" you. If you do not believe God now, that means you believe there was also no faith to lose back then. On the other hand, I can tell you that the faith it takes to be mad at God is the same amount of faith that Jesus' said can move mountains, just misapplied.
Such a hypothesis suffers to explain my condition at the time. If I couldn't believe that God was faithful and I could not remember Jesus, then crying out to God and God alone in my darkest time brings my sanity into question, does it not?
No, that is wrong. It is precisely because I believed God was a God of power, the God of James 1:5, that I entreated and begged Him FULLY expecting Him to fulfill His promise. If you will say that He would have answered me in His own time, then the apologetic fails since He waited until after my faith had waned it's last. If you say He answered me degree by degree when I was erroneously expecting a supercharge of faith instead then that too is false. I am tempted to use the analogy of the drowning man in the storm who is drawn in inch by inch despite his most earnest begging.
You are no doubt aware that you have since doubted the truth of James 1:5, so appealing to it shows the double-mindedness it warns against. You have lost the
expectation of receiving an answer, and perhaps the answer might become clear when you address the real issues.
You say God failed because He waited until after your faith had waned, but if you still have enough faith to resent Him for that, perhaps God is showing you that that is all the faith you'll need. Because it's not the amount of faith that saves you, it's Him. "If we are faithless, he will remain faithful". Has the implication of this verse started sinking in yet?
God did not need you to have the faith you asked for to be there for you, or to save you. Jesus made this clear in Luke 17:5, when the apostles asked
Prostithemi hemin pistis!: "Increase our faith!"
James 1:19-20
My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires.
And it certainly doesn't bring about that life. I'm not sure I see your point. When we are "quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry", this doesn't make us any more certain of
salvation. But it speaks of the kind of attitude that our knowledge of salvation should bring - it's the attitude God saved us
for.
Saved from the snares of Satan, which threaten to snuff faith. 1 Cor 10:13 Why did He not make me a way of escape, as promised?
How do you know He didn't? 1 Cor. 10:13 speaks of the temptation to sin, that God gives us the strength to stand up
under it and escape (not that He will remove them, or "put them to sleep"). These snares might strangle your faith, but it doesn't affect God's faithfulness. Romans 8 again:
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (v.38-39)
If God did not forsake me, then why did He not fulfill His promises?
I allowed God's faithfulness for a loong time during that period, believing that my foolishness blinded me from the wisdom of God, and yet He still hid his face.
Will He find fault?
Because I am so estranged from Christianity, I cannot now speak of God in terms of the Christian God. But I will say this. From time to time, in order to quell the questions of doubt and uncertainty which rise from time to time, I wait for God to fulfill His promise. But surely, if He hasn't fulfilled one for 2000 years, it's hard to hope He's going to fulfill one now.
You haven't lived 2000 years, so that's just a statment of your new faith. As for promising wisdom, maybe it required that you get rid of some misconceptions - and with it, the faith that
relied on those misconceptions. Christ is still there to love you, Christians are still there to ask questions to, the Bible is still there to "make you wise for salvation".
Either there is a deeper seated resentment against God, or you haven't been clear about your reasons for abandoning ship. If they're not quite clear to you yourself yet, I pray that you will receive the clarity you seek.
Despite all the prayers, Terri Schiavo died (or was already dead, if you like).
Many people die in spite of prayers. Prayer doesn't operate God like a slot machine, and as you pointed out, even Jesus' wasn't spared the cup He had to drink, even though He prayed fervently. Prayer is a deposit of faith that certainly bears results, but sometimes we don't know what we're asking:
Matt. 20:22-23
"You don't know what you are asking," Jesus said to them. "Can you drink the cup I am going to drink?"
"We can," they answered.
Jesus said to them, "You will indeed drink from my cup, but to sit at my right or left is not for me to grant. These places belong to those for whom they have been prepared by my Father."
You are probably being put through this because you asked for it, but it might not take the form you expected until it is done - until God's will is done. What you had in mind for the faith and wisdom you asked for might not be what God had in mind. We don't exist only for ourselves, and God's gifts aren't meant only for ourselves.
That's a lame cop out for God. If it is not God's will that something happens, then His omnipotence is questionable for one. My conviction is also not that I have been rejected. Here is an analogy to explain what I see it as: Imagine a mother who sits on the porch and drinks lemonade whilst her three year old is mauled by wolves. That's not 'rejection'. Besides that, I never forgot that God existed before me and I did not want Him to 'prove' anything, all I asked was that He snatch my unfaithfulness and set me on the path of His choosing. Not much room in that for arrogance, I think. Just a man being earnest with God and prostrating himself.
Since when does God's omnipotence mean that everything happens where you can see it, and in a way you can recognize it? Does it even mean that God has to finish every act in one fell swoop, within your lifetime? What length of time does omnipotence need to qualify as omnipotence to you? The problem (for us) is that
our time is limited, not God's.
Imagine a father who sends his son to a vinyard that he left in the care of farmers, to collect the rent they owe him, and to see him ripped to shreds by the people he trusted. Imagine a father upon seeing his son return to him after it was almost certain he was dead. Imagine a father having the grace to let the son go in the first place.
We're establishing the grounds for a morality sans God right now. Feel free to read through the post I made on the previous page if you like. Thanks for all your advice and concern; I appreciate your thoughtfulness.
It might be
defined sans God, but that doesn't mean it
exists apart from God. Our "sense of what is fitting" makes no sense if our premise is that nothing is more or less fitting than anything else, by virtue of having become the norm through an undirected and haphazard process of evolution. It makes sense if we were created in the image of God, and can still recognize that image independent of Him.