Well as has been just discussed behaviour like that would be an "emulation", I just don't think it would naturally occur. I guess anything can happen. Hell, I wanted Linda Carter(wonder woman lol) when I was 5, so it could have just been a curiousity. Most kids would worry about getting pee'd in the mouth I would think.
I am guilty of...
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Well as has been just discussed behaviour like that would be an "emulation", I just don't think it would naturally occur. I guess anything can happen. Hell, I wanted Linda Carter(wonder woman lol) when I was 5, so it could have just been a curiousity. Most kids would worry about getting pee'd in the mouth I would think.
its not that I was ashamed of it, but that I never told it to anyone. And that guilt/closeness inside was kept inside me all this time. And my cousin sometimes has that look in his eyes...but than I come to visit him only on summers, so who knows what is that look in his eyes is...he hates america but likes me cause I am his cousin .
Anyway all my three cousins are wonderful.Well...I did try to masturbate when I was like 3-4 years old, I accidently rubbed myself with the eraser and I liked it. So ever since I had other dreams and such, of course I never did masturbate (only at age 9 did it work).
Same thing I feel.
The fact that I never told it to anyone, the fact that every time I see my cousin I see it as it happened ( I got good visual memory ). And the fact that I think he remembers it too. And also that its just plainly gross now to think of it, that I even wanted this. But mainly because I miss being small kid running around Russia/Belarus being free as wind, eating apples in gardens all around me and than other fruits all free, biking around the gorgeous Voronezh city, and than miss being with my grandma and her relatives in small town. I miss being there at that time when I felt peace and was happy, I miss my childhood and these accidents* like I described crawl out of memory as dark patches.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Voronezh
http://www.fallingrain.com/world/BO/0/Krasnaya_Gora.html
Draqon:
There is a YouTube video on just this very thing, oddly enough. Well, childhood sexual experimentation in general, but you know what I mean.
Here, check it out.
It even tells you when life is so jive like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eLU_mPE8k0Y
There is a YouTube video on just this very thing, oddly enough. Well, childhood sexual experimentation in general, but you know what I mean.
Here, check it out.
It even tells you when life is so jive like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eLU_mPE8k0Y
Why?
draqon said:
Gee. I totally thought you were a flaming gay. Thanks for clearing things up.
draqon said:
Okay.
draqon said:
What the hell? Why would it ruin your life?
If you say this because you're a homophobe and are deeply disturbed by what you did, then it's time you reflect on your feelings about gay people.
draqon said:
I don't get why you'd feel guilty over this.
draqon said:
How about try to come to terms with it and try not to let it bother you?
draqon said:
Geez, you already told us. Now I'm starting to suspect you're hiding something.
draqon said:
You probably shouldn't.
Have you considered that this might be the source of your homophobia?
I haven't watched the video (I have dial-up), but I'm almost certain that was a stupid, out-of-the-line comment. :bugeye:
Draqon, re-evaluate your attitude towards homosexuality. The one you have now, to be blunt, is very childish.
Its no big deal, children are inquisitive and explore themselves in many ways.
DRaqon:
And you aren't?
And you aren't?
can't you read what I wrote. you and your anti-communist agenda is the same thing as this, you only believe what you believe and giving you proof (well proof that you got to trust) doesn't change anything.
Dragon, you've had a lot of positive replies here showing you that you have nothing to feel guilty about, which you don't seem to have responded to in any meaningful way.
Seeing as we're on the subject of phobias, then it's only right that I point out to you that yes, you do seem to have a lot of issues you have to sort out. From homophobia, to a disdain of alcohol, drugs and smoking, from valuing your virginity until you are married to, whatever, from this that and the other to that, this and something else, you, for a 20 year old, show too mucho hang-upso.
You remind me of someone living inside an eggshell and perhaps it's time to break out of it and experience a bit of real life. Your display of integrity would carry more weight if you were actually able to put your head in the lion's mouth for once, and were able to walk away with it still firmly on your shoulders. Like the man said, take a walk on the wild side, where the coloured girls go, boom ti boom.
Seeing as we're on the subject of phobias, then it's only right that I point out to you that yes, you do seem to have a lot of issues you have to sort out. From homophobia, to a disdain of alcohol, drugs and smoking, from valuing your virginity until you are married to, whatever, from this that and the other to that, this and something else, you, for a 20 year old, show too mucho hang-upso.
You remind me of someone living inside an eggshell and perhaps it's time to break out of it and experience a bit of real life. Your display of integrity would carry more weight if you were actually able to put your head in the lion's mouth for once, and were able to walk away with it still firmly on your shoulders. Like the man said, take a walk on the wild side, where the coloured girls go, boom ti boom.
Draqon:
You put your penis willingly into a mouth of a man. You've also said you hate women, don't want to have sex with them, and that they are evil.
You are the textbook example of a homosexual male.
You put your penis willingly into a mouth of a man. You've also said you hate women, don't want to have sex with them, and that they are evil.
You are the textbook example of a homosexual male.
Like I said I did when I was 4-5 years old. I did it because I didnt know boundaries at that time. There were no girls around me. The fact that I did it, for 20 seconds had made me forever shy person and closed in. I never said I hate women, I do however like older women (5 years older than me and more) because they are much more seemingly intelligent. I do not like girls of my age because they act silly and all they do is behave like lesbians, and I do not want to go into sexual relationship with a girl whom I do not love. I only want sex after marriage and only with my wife.
And stop trolling me, I already said I am not a homosexual, my problem lies in me never telling this story to anyone and keeping this all inside me.
You're a strange chap, draqon. In general.
As everyone's said - who cares, you were 4 or 5 at the time. Fairly natural thing to do. The reason you feel guilt is the issue here, not what you did.
Do you hope to marry a likeminded girl who is a virgin? Seems ambitious.
As everyone's said - who cares, you were 4 or 5 at the time. Fairly natural thing to do. The reason you feel guilt is the issue here, not what you did.
Do you hope to marry a likeminded girl who is a virgin? Seems ambitious.
Well, you've now told about a gazillion people on the Internet ...so you're cured, right?
Baron Max