I am an atheist who cannot imagine being converted to some religious belief. My views are based on faith, just as the views of religious people are based on faith.
Science as well as religion is based on faith. The mathematician/scientist believes in the validity of some simple, but unprovable axioms.
The difference between science and religion is in the simplicity of the axioms of mathematics & science when compared to the beliefs required by religion. Most of the basic axioms of science seem very self evident, for example:
- Two points determine a straight line, which is the shortest distance between them.
- The addition & multiplication tables for integers from zero to nine.
- Equals added to equals result in equals.
- If statement A is true, then Not statement A is false (the law of the excluded middle).
The set of basic beliefs required by religion are far more complex (I find it difficult to call them axioms).
I wonder how many believers there would be if religion was first taught to people when they were 25 years old.
I started down the path to atheism when I was 6-8 years old and was told the story of Job. It seemed weird to me and when I asked questions, the answers made less sense than the original story. The concept of god treating Job so badly in spite of his being loyal to god, seemed wrong. It did not seem right that god should cause Job’s wife & children to die because he was having an argument with the devil.
At that age, I was merely confused by religious teachings, while arithmetic made sense. As I learned more, religion seemed to get more confusing and less believable, while mathematics got more complicated, but always seemed understandable and believable. Perhaps if I had taken topology when I was ten years old, it would have confused me as much as religion did.
When I was in my early twenties, I encountered the following quip.
- An agnostic is a cowardly atheist.
I immediately realized that it applied to me. After reading the above quip, I acknowledged being an atheist if the topic came up (I seldom initiate a discussion of religion). For many years I had considered myself to be an agnostic rather than admitting even to myself that I was an atheist. I now realize that I had a weird notion that something terrible would happen to me if I denied the existence of god.
In response to long forgotten questions, I remembered comments like.
- So young and already blasphemous!
Such remarks (instead of an answer) were made with a suggestion of horror in the voice of the speaker. I had the feeling that I had done something wrong. I wondered what I had done, not thinking that merely asking a question was naughty.
To this day, I am convinced that religious belief is instilled by a subtle type of brainwashing. All the adults believe. The adults are all powerful and competent. Disagreement or questions are viewed as being naughty. The child is dependent on the adults. Therefore, the child believes without really understanding.
When I think about how children become believers, I am reminded of a time when I was a laboratory rat for a psychology class.
- My roommate asked me to participate in a visual perception test. About 25 of us were shown groups of three vertical or horizontal lines and asked to specify which was the longest or shortest or widest or what ever. It was explained that the results were supposed to be statistical, rather than the experiment being a test of particular people. We were instructed to answer verbally, with the results merely being tallied.
I happened to be about the 20th or so in the group of 25. On the first set, I heard 19 answer B and one answer A, when Line A seemed to an obviously correct answer. I answered A, after which 5 people answered B. The next few sets of lines were a bit harder to judge, and all the others gave the same answer, different from mine. I started to feel very uncomfortable and wondered if my glasses were not doing a good job of assisting my terrible eyesight.
Then my memory of carnival scams told me what was happening. I said.”I am the mark in a room full of shills and I do not like it.” I walked out of the room and later refused to be interviewed on my views (after all, I had made my view quite clear before walking out).
I later discovered that most of the other marks allowed themselves to be influenced by the group, concurring with the answers given by the others allegedly being tested. They must have felt like fools when they discovered what was really being tested. I personally think that the professor who thought up that test should be fired for deliberately humiliating students.
it seems to me that a child being given religious instruction obviously presented as truth by adults has little chance to escape being brainwashed. Many college students bowed to peer pressure in that so called test of visual perception. It must be much harder for the child to avoid being influenced by adults.
I consider myself to have been lucky
: I was told something that seemed very unreasonable to me while I still had some critical judgment facilities intact. Only the seeds of atheism were sowed by the story of Job. It took years and a lot of confusion before they took root.