I meant would you volunteer to be conditioned purely at the descretion of someone else?
I am not sure what that would imply, so I have difficulty answering.
But for the sake of caution - no, I would not want to willingly have someone play me as they wish.
What point would you like to make with this question?
Logically, the option to not exist is impossible, but it is something I find the least unappealing, given the other options.
What is this statement in relation to?
That the thing I find most appealing (even though I do not find it appealing per se, just that it is the least unappealing option of several unappealing options), is to not exist.
Sure, such noble goals. The top one being to cultivate detachment from the desire to ever be with God, right?
Not from a religious perspective.
In theory, perhaps.
Sounds like you have issues.
I have issues??
Many people's problems with God are about raped babies, plagues, floods and such.
My problem with God is about theists.
For the sake of consistency, I have to believe that God does not make mistakes.
For all practical intents and purposes, this means that I have to believe that the whole hierarchical model of trying to please God and to come to God makes perfect sense and is perfectly moral and correct. So that when some theist, who happens to be above me in the hierarchy, wants that I unconditionally surrender to them (at the threat of otherwise committing an offense so grave as to send me to hell), when I am expected to believe that the hierarchy between theists trumps everything else - this is when I have a problem. If I would believe that God makes mistakes, I would say that this hierarchical model is a mistake.
Theism looks nice in theory. But in my experience, not in practice.