Why did it happen?
If you can communicate with G-d then ask him why.
Have you used your 'gift' for good in any sort of way?
What exactly has G-d told you?
god's told me a lot of things, and those things have accomplished good imo. god's taught me to love myself and love others, to forgive people, to be kind, strong, and generous. to be honest. god's encouraged me to find out what i'm really made of.