I have had an "ability" to know that someone close to me is going to die a fews days before it happens. Shitty thing is, I can't control it.
I have a dream, a certain type of dream, with a certain emotional connection to it, and within a week, poof someone's dead. I've been dead on for about 17 years, with one exception.
I have at this point, come to trust it. While I don't understand it, and it doesn't tell who, or how or when, I know someone, somehow, in the next 10 days or so.
Best friend blowing his brains out? check. Freak car accident? check. Freak brain hemmorage in wisdom teeth surgery? check. Even the more obvious, Step-dad in the ICU for months with a brain bleed - that one had more fore-warning.
A month ago, I had a slightly different type of dream. I wrote it up, and emailed it to my dad with the following line at the bottom: "I don't know what to make of this dream. it's like one of my death dreams, but not. It kind of like a 'loss' dream. I don't know."
Six days later, my sister had her baby, 9 weeks early. hanah, at 3lbs, 11 oz, was tiny, and things were risky. She has, however, done quite well over the past weeks, and is at 4lbs 5oz.
I have also, about a month and a half ago had my first OBE-sort of thing. I was meditating, and found myself in a dream-sort of. It was like the clearest dream I'd ever had. I was fully aware of both my body in my room, and me, in a buddhist temple. A teacher there gave me a book, and told me to read. I double checked that I could actually read it (given previous attempts to test the idea that you can't read in your dreams, I wanted to verify that I wasn't dreaming), and I could see each letter, and each word. I read some of it before I "woke up", which was a different expirience in of itself. I talked to a Ch'an Buddhist monk about the book - He mentioned that he had seen it before, and I should look for it at the bookstore. No luck. Amazon.com? no luck. Library? no luck. finally turns out that *his* teacher, whos been dead since the 70's, had a hand-written book with the same title as what I had "dreampt" or OBE'd about.
So I can say, yes, I think that I am somehow able to pick up on subtle causal threads in the world, and my brain displays them to me in my dreams. Or there is something else about this universe that we have not yet explained in science. I don't know much about it, if the later is the case.
Can I move shit with my mind? I thought I did it once, but after taking the situation apart, and study my body position, etc, I discovered that my breath was travelling down my body and forming a vortex which was causing the effect I was seeing. After I covered my face with a scarf, I couldn't reproduce the effect.
I have a burning desire, though, something like I don't know in any other area of my life. I WANT there to be something more there. its kind of odd, considering all its brought me so far is useless pre-knowledge of dead freinds.
RW
PS: I do fully beleive in chi energy, though I don't see it in the classical sense, simply due to my scientific background. I can warm my extremities 30 degrees F within a few mintues just by thinking about it. This is recorded at the U of Penn in philly- fully controled data. I have seen people break 1" boards with a single finger, knock a group of people over from across the room, and knock someone out by hitting them lightly in three places on their body (in sequence).
there is most certainly something more int he realm of chi which western science is only starting to open up to - evidence: insurance companies paying for accupunture treatments.
However, I've seen more thin faiths, frauds and lunatic beleifs in the world than I have actual "cool stuff."
PPS: I think as we learn more about the underlying physics of the universe that we live in; radiation, matter, strings, etc, we will come to understand alot more about the world we live in and the "subtleties" that psycics and such talk about. How do the metephorical strings in string theory vibrate to bring about different forms of matter/energy? Might it be possible for the vibration of a string, before it is enough to evidence in the 3 dimentions that we can easily perceive with sight/sound/hearing/touch/taste, to have an effect on the world? might it be possible for us to detect that vibration, even if it's on a subconscious level?
Given that matter effects thought, and thought can effect matter, how might thought effect the stuff that creates matter, and vise versa?