To put it into some perspective, it has taken me 2 weeks to be able to say the word rape as it applies to me. I have not slept properly since it happened, my parents have moved into my house to protect me, I suppose. My partner is desperately trying to either quit his job or find employment closer to home so he can be here, my ex husband is looking after our children because I am too scared for their safety for them to sleep here. Going somewhere else won't make me feel safer. Nothing will. The man who did this to me is mentally unstable. While I have all the legal protections one can have in such situations, he is still driving up and down past my street. Since he is keeping his 'distance', you get my point. But, there is no sleep for the wicked, so I remain awake.
Am I losing it? No. What I have lost is patience for pure BS. I have absolutely lost patience with people who delve into the realms of fantasy instead of applying reality and those who deny.. deny.. deny. And I have lost even more patience with people who jump to the absolute and ridiculous extreme to try and make a point because applying a realistic standard is simply unrealistic. And the patience I had for people who claim there is no link when there clearly are links has gone out the window.
Don't worry, this place isn't where I will lose it. Real life is. This place has nothing on that.