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I remember wondering this when I was a child still trying to overcome my indoctrination into Christainity. Around the time I started to question my faith, I really searched hard to find a reason to believe. I had been to sunday school and church and tried to accept everything with an open mind until I was about 16 and I started to question my religion. I really wanted to believe in God; I wanted to fit in with everyone else. I felt guilty when I expressed doubt, and I was reprimanded for wanting proof of God's existence. I remember begging God to please show himself to me so that I could follow him with a full heart and believe rather than just follow based on waht others tell me. I would pray and say "God, please make your presence undeniably known to me like you did to your apostles and other followers. If I do not get a sign from you soon, I will forsake you." I would wait a couple days, tehn give God a second chance. I started to realize how stupid this was after the 5th time or so and I finally concluded with great conviction that God does not exist. After researching the topic more via this site, scientific research, and claims made by both atheists and theists, I have further consolifdated my belief that God is imaginary and that I wasted much of my life looking for him.
Why would God (if he existed) have let me abandon him, a person who truly and earnestly wanted to find him? Does he not love me and want me to see his truth and light? Why did he not give me some evidence? He must have known that the validity of the Bible is questionable at best and that some people will be skeptical, would he not give these peopel extra attention?
Why won't God reveal himself to anyone? Why did he only reveal himself to people 2000 years ago and then take a break, thus creating much doubt concerning the validity of these accounts.
I can only conclude that God does not exist. Does anyone have another idea??
Why would God (if he existed) have let me abandon him, a person who truly and earnestly wanted to find him? Does he not love me and want me to see his truth and light? Why did he not give me some evidence? He must have known that the validity of the Bible is questionable at best and that some people will be skeptical, would he not give these peopel extra attention?
Why won't God reveal himself to anyone? Why did he only reveal himself to people 2000 years ago and then take a break, thus creating much doubt concerning the validity of these accounts.
I can only conclude that God does not exist. Does anyone have another idea??