Im reasonably well-read on my theology, im really just asking people to share their experiences.
As in - what were you doing when you 'found' god? what state of mind were you in prior to and after this spiritual awakening?
Well i had just completed my apprenticeship and had secured a full time position with my employer so i was in a fairly secure and happy frame of mind. A friend of mine at work was religious and we started to talk religion. I came from a catholic background but by that time i was more like a cultural catholic rather than a religious catholic, We talked about God and he gave me a bible to read. Well i read the bible for the first time and the rest is history. After i had "found God" as you put it, my outlook on the world completely changed, it is hard to explain it but what i once though was solid i now knew to be transitory and i perceived a far larger existence than just me and the world.
was it a visceral experience, or was it more of an intellectual position you developed over the years? perhaps you found god via reason and rational analysis?
It was not a visceral experience. And the process is not one that takes years. The point of acceptance of the Messiah Jesus takes a moment, the process of understanding the Will of God takes time that time can vary form a week to a lifetime. Reason and analysis always goes into any decision.
Do you not hold with pantheism?
I take this question to be asking if i believe in pantheism. Short answer No i do not believe in pantheism. Pantheism is the worship of what has been created, I believe the Creator should be worshipped not the created.
Ok gotcha, so your view is that god is not so much a 'universal enity', or gross sum of the cosmos, but an entity devoid of proportion, mass, or spacial location.
Proportion, mass and spatial location are all measurements used in relation to our universe. As i believe that God created the universe then of course He is separate from the universe because the Creator is not what He created. Although He is connected to the universe and can interact with it as His will sees fit. So all these measurements you mention cannot be used in relation to God.
Im not really interested in getting some kind of 'god-fix' is that's what you mean. If anything this is more about my own personal quest for some sort of meaning external to myself.
Cool, thinking beyond oneself and ones surrounding existence is a great start to being open to wisdom that is beyond this form of existence.
In that sense i guess you could say god is more of a middle-man for me to attain some sort of 'meaningfulness' beyond the confines of my own head.
Then again in some highly abstracted sense 'meaning' and 'god' could amount to the same thing, so if i find one i find the other
Well middleman is not the words i would use but yes God is a source of wisdom beyond anything that can be obtained from measuring and studying the physical universe.
What does this quote refer to btw?
The Ancient of Days is a title used for God in the OT scriptures.
Daniel 7
9 “ I watched till thrones were put in place,
And the Ancient of Days was seated;
His garment was white as snow,
And the hair of His head was like pure wool.
His throne was a fiery flame,
Its wheels a burning fire;
10 A fiery stream issued
And came forth from before Him.
A thousand thousands ministered to Him;
Ten thousand times ten thousand stood before Him.
The court was seated,
And the books were opened.
All Praise The Ancient Of Days