I know this is long, but it'd really help me out if you could read it all and maybe say something in reply. Thanks a lot - Fr0zEn
Hello everyone. I am new to this message board. I was searching google for religious debates and came across this site. I've been eyeballing it for a week or so, and finally decided to become a member and make a post or two.
I grew up (in portland) in a Christian family. I have a brother and a sister, both of which, as far as i am aware, claim to be Christian. If you had asked me a year and a half ago, I would have claimed the same thing. So what changed? What do I claim now? To be honest, I'm not entirely sure. The summer before and the entirety of my senior year of high school seemed to bring much change to my life.
I stopped going to church for two main reasons; 1) I didn't have any good friends. I was nice to everyone and people were nice to me, but no good friend that I did stuff with outside of Bible studies. 2) My parents stopped going, claiming that the church's views and teachings were too narrow-minded and literal (or at least thats the reason I gathered). I think thats around where things started to change. I think I got this attitude about me that I was better than the other Christians at the church because I didn't believe the Bible literally; I had this higher, more sophisticated belief in which Satan wasn't a rouge angel and heaven and hell weren't physical places where a soul goes. This self-glorifying attitude scared me when I talked to a good Christian friend about it. She just blew it off as something that everyone goes through.
Then one day after hearing Tom Cruise debate something about Scientology, I thought how silly it was to believe something so absurd. Then I put myself outside of my own shoes....and I examined my own religious beliefs. I had this thought....Ever since the dawn of mankind; of culture and civilization, there have been religions to explain the meaning of life. There are hundreds, thousands of different religions, each one believed by its members to be the one and only correct one. But how is that possible? How can just one be right?
It was after this that my Christian spirituality and faith began to fade. I never (and still haven't) admitted to not believing in (a) God, but I certainly wasn't living a Christian life. I've been pondering my quandary for many weeks now, and I sought out a board like this to perhaps offer enlightenment or something like that.
I guess I could ask (if you read all of that gargantuan 1st post) what your thoughts on my predicament are. How did you became to believe what you believe now? And what is your rational?