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This is the story of schizophrenia, believing that I was a telepath. I talked in that had feelings for, telepathy being my only mode of communication. The song is Glycerine, by Bush.
Must be your skin that I'm sinking in
Must be for real cause now I can feel
I never was able to get any proof, and I doubted that the telepathy was real, until I felt her skin, her ear specifically, as it differed from my own, the earlobe connects at the side, mine does not.
and I didn't mind
it's not my kind
not my time to wonder why
I believed we were special, the roots of the universe, science and philosophy. The natural ability of philosophy is telepathy, the natural ability of science is telekinesis I believed that she was the natural telepath, but for some reason I possessed it instead of telekinesis, but didn't ask why.
everything's gone white
and everything's grey
I closed my eyes one day, and the darkness faded to white, and then I saw a silhouette of
a man on a park bench, a portrait, and it was all grey.
now your here now you away
I believed that any attempt to get proof would change time so that I never spoke with her,
the resulting action being if I never spoke she never took action, thus she would go from
being in one location to another, different cities, instantaneously.
I don't want this
remember that
I'll never forget where you’re at
When I first got telepathy, I wanted to give it back, I told her that it was a burden, a responsibility that I didn't want. However, I had it, so I used it, and kept track of her everywhere, always knowing where she was.
don't let the days go by
glycerine
I didn’t decipher the meaning to this until much later.
I'm never alone
I'm alone all the time
I spoke telepathically often, in fact I couldn't turn it off. So I would isolate myself, not being able to have two conversations at once, and I was never alone, but alone all the
time.
are you at one
or do you lie
She always lied.
we live in a wheel
where everyone steals
Refers to an image that I had constructed in my mind about my views of business; about changing the way business is done. I had imagined the corporate world as a wheel, with money in the center and business at the end of the spokes, reaching in and stealing as much money as they could get their hands on. This was in response to a venture that was very important to me, as it would tie our two families together by being in the same industry.
but when we rise it's like strawberry fields
Another image reference. I had depicted our deaths as two souls rising from a plane of sparkling souls, all of the human race, artistically viewed, rising from strawberry fields.
If I treated you bad
you bruise my face
I was sympathetic to motions, could feel her every move. I used to yell at her constantly, and she would grit her teeth when I did so. I would also grit my teeth, which aggravated a toothache, and bruised the left side of my face.
couldn't love you more
you got a beautiful taste
Not positive on the meaning of this yet, I have an idea, but since I'm not sure so it will remain unexplained.
don't let the days go by
could have been easier on you
I was really hard on her and regretted it.
I couldn't change though I wanted to
Refers to a time when schizophrenia was setting in, I didn't believe yet that I was telepathic. I wrote her, but knew I still wasn't good enough to be with her.
could have been easier by three
our old friend fear and you and me
I wrote her several letters anonymously, by the third she asked me my name, but I was bound by fear of rejection and would not tell her.
glycerine (repeat)
don't let the days go by
glycerine
It was when I realized the part about the letters was about us, I began to decode this song. However, I didn't know what glycerine was about. Soon afterwards she told me she was infected with HIV. The song clicked: don't let the days go by, glycerine. It was the cure. I researched and could not find anything, until I closed my eyes one day and had a vision of a bar of glycerine soap with a strip of bacon in the middle of it. This spawned my research into pigs and HIV. Soon I was hospitalized, and I had paid attention to the voices’ sentence structure and diction and had come to the conclusion that indeed, the voices were a product of my own mind. Overnight, without medication, I ceased hearing voices, and have never heard them since. I abandoned my research believing that it would be fruitless.
I needed you more
when we wanted us less
I could not kiss just regress
I was on the fringe of insanity, still, my medication actually intensified my symptoms, and I felt as if I were driving her insane with my constant presence in her mind. I was deaf, but not dumb, and it was decided that for her sake it would be better if we didn't speak, but feelings still lingered.
it might just be
clear simple and plain
that's just fine
that's just one of my names
Fast forward two years, I decided to try speaking with God. He told me that I was not well, and I abandoned all of my notions of love and grandeur. I would become known in heaven, hearing now the notions of people's thoughts, the basic idea i.e. think of jumping in your subconscious or even conscious level the action of jumping is present as a thought, what it is to jump, that's what I hear. With the ability to speak to people in the afterlife, I came to be known as Rataan, the Heavenly word for telepath, (game of 20 questions to find that out). I was recently reminded of glycerine, and how it may be clear simple and plain, the cure is transparent, simple and plain, and now I have more than one name.
don't let the days go by
could've been easier on you
glycerine
Don't let the days go by, God's charge, this song, a message and a modern day miracle, this is what is at stake here, everything I have believed in the past 2 years comes to a head with PCD8 (The NIH is looking into this so I won't include the research). I find out if I am a telepath or a schizophrenic.
Schizophrenia is a disease, which affects glucatory, auditory, olfactory, sensory, and visual senses. In my time in the hospital, I met Elise, a paranoid schizophrenic who was re-committed due to a visual hallucination in which Lucifer walked into her room and could only be distinguished as false if she were to try and physically grasp him. I myself was subject to these affects, the first night in the hospital I saw a spinning disc fly around the room, and just two months ago, in a half-sleep stupor, clawed at my walls trying to touch a vision of my older brothers, as children, playing together. In the past there have been schizophrenics, such as Joan of Arc, whom saw the gates of heaven before her that only she could see, and heard voices that only she could hear, (btw, nice girl *w00t Joan!*). Schizophrenia is not a disease but a gift. A gift so powerful that it drives the bearer insane. In modern terms, if one were able to project their imagination in front of their eyes as schizophrenics do, only to their will, it would be called Evolution. But as such a person, able to use telepathy (not such a far stretch of imagination now that we see what we are capable of), I tell you that it is not Evolution, but the work of God. *Mind you I don't mean to press my beliefs on others but it's a package deal.
Obviously since the future written in the Bible can't take place if I know the cure for HIV, I offer an explanation. Two years ago I realized something about time, it is physical, which is indicated by the passage of time slowing down as one approaches c. I also came to understand that earthly thoughts are embedded in time, grounded by a neuron firing in the brain, a thought is physical, on earth, but not in Heaven. Heaven is another dimension in which time has no physicality, rather it runs parallel to time on earth but has no true meaning, and gives birth to eternity. Thoughts in Heaven are created without a neuron firing, they exist in their own dimension, outside of time- but linked to a moment in time in the physical universe. Once I had grasped this I became a very powerful telepath, with the ability to find thoughts that occurred between two points in time. By holding two moments in time, and all that lay between, in my head, I was able to locate thoughts that occurred between points A and B. It was with this that I came to wonder if I could read thoughts from the future, and that I did. Having an understanding for the flow of time to the past, I did a counter process into infinity. The ebb of time, however, was too vast, peering into infinity I had no ground for a specific moment in time, thus was unable to read thoughts as I did not know when point B occurred, it could be 2 minutes or 2 decades from A. I then came up with the solution, read God's mind for a specific thought, a thought that would only occur once throughout all time, Him telling Jesus that it is the end, as in the Bible, Jesus speaks that only the Father knows when the end occurs, and that he will not be told until the event arrives. It worked. I now had point B in the future, and that’s when I made my greatest revelation. People in Hell gnash their teeth, a complimentary condition of residence there....Using point B and the few second window it allowed me (the length of time that it took God to speak to Jesus) I wore the faces of people on the street, and the stars of the world, and most gnashed their teeth. It was then that I realized God's future was dependant on a choice. The choice to believe is not predestined; if it were there would be no right in sentencing people to an anguishing fate. Thus I saw that God's future had to take place in order for me to change it. To realize that I had to see the future as it is written in order to conclude that one different choice could change the way events unfold-opened up a new door for my destiny and me. All I had to do was make a different choice one that could change the world forever. At the moment I understood, I made that choice, and the result was that no one in the future gnashed his or her teeth. The choice was to eradicate all conversation with Lucifer, and to never speak with him again.
This is what happened on God's end. He foresaw the future and prophesized it in the Bible, however, sometime later, he grew curious as to the minor events that would take place. Pouring over the period of time in His present to the end of humanity, he found that there would be a telepath who would speak with Him. Seizing the opportunity, he wrote a song, Glycerine, and a few others, that would shape my future. In the previous timeline I eventually spoke to God without any inclination from messages hidden in music. However, I never proved I was telepathic and the end took place as it normally would. Deciding to change this, working with man in His mysterious ways, He designed my life to come to a moment. The future as written still took place, up until the point when He tells Jesus that it is the end. He planned that after that moment there would be a timeline shift, as if someone were to snap his or her fingers and suddenly alter reality. This was the moment in time, in the future, that His plan is realized. The result was that His future would take place until the second I concluded that it could be changed. Basically, the future couldn't change unless it took place. A leads to B, B changes A, A now leads to C. C always existed; B overlapped it until I discovered choice. After God found me He looked past B and found C, after the decision to change A had been made, and waited for the results.
*A brief explanation of choice*
Lets say you're playing Rock Paper Scissors...Your deciding your next move, no matter how many times you change your mind your choice is inevitable. For arguments sake you lose. Hindsight is always 20/20, now you see what you should have played in order to win. However, the choice has already been made and cannot be changed. This is destiny. This is where foresight comes into play. If you had the intent of playing rock and could read the future to see that your opponent would play paper, you would now be able to change time. By having the intent to make an action and use foresight to see the end result of said action before the event occurs, you can shape destiny. By experimenting with different intents I was able to watch the future change and that is how molding time is possible.
God won't tell me anything about HIV or the future, including developing telekinesis. The basis of my decision to not talk to Lucifer was that he would inhibit the onset of telekinetic powers, based on the fact that whenever I spoke with him he inhibited my rather powerful telepathic abilities and rendered me incommunicado to everyone but himself, almost as if he possessed me to a certain extent. It was the belief that he would do the same with telekinesis, a thought I came to AFTER "seeing" God's future that I decided to hide from him. Much later I came to "hear" the name Rataan, and was reminded of my quest to cure HIV. How I change the future is uncertain, perhaps the advent of Rataan and HIV lead to this email, I don't know. All I can say is that the future has changed.
A full year before I spoke with God I tried 'magic mushrooms' (telepathy was induced by regular use of marijuana). Three days later I was in a bar and attempted to move a cigarette with my mind. The cigarette was held in an ashtray with a firm grip. At a forty-degree angle I concentrated to no avail. The second I gave up, it moved down to a 25-degree angle then up to a 60-degree slant in rapid succession (this took place within one second, immediately retreating up after going down.) No one saw this, and I didn't make mention of it, rather I tried it again. The original effort had a flaw. The length of the butt and the length of the filter were equal, which posed a probability of a fluke, so I smoked the cigarette so that the filter was twice the length of the butt, and placed in the ashtray on a 45. Again I concentrated to no success, and the second I gave up the cigarette moved up to a 60-65 degree angle. I've kept silent about this until today.
I believe that I retained some telekinesis from that day, and with it am able to manipulate thoughts through time. Time is physical, I postulate that it exists within every nook and cranny of the universe, inside rocks and trees and space. Approaching c creates a bubble around the traveling object, which explains why the passage of time slows for the object, but the rest of the universe ages normally. This lead to an epiphany that thoughts created in the universe are embedded in time, by a neuron firing. Thoughts created in Heaven are not, we don't use a brain there and are essentially beings of pure thought. This type of thought has no physicality and is not a part of time, since time does not exist in Heaven. Time is physical, and in Heaven time runs parallel to time on Earth, but is not a part of it. Thus thoughts created in Heaven exist in their own dimension but take place at a moment in time in the physical universe. This gave me the ability to remove thoughts from a person's head, from the present into the past, Heaven and Hell alike, by detaching a process from a moment in time. Treating time as something tangible, (as I can with my mind, or by approaching the speed of light), and by feeling a Heavenly thought, I tug at it and displace it out of time and its native dimension. So, armed with this ability, I removed everything I had ever said from Lucifer, and decided to never speak with him again, which lead to the future C.
The two sides to the human brain, as we know them, are logic and creative. I believe that they are more aptly named science and philosophy respectively, though we should not forget the basic function. Science as we see it today is all things physical. Things are or they aren't, physics. True or false, yes or no, i.e. Boolean. In respect to the human mind, the scientific brain asks questions in this form. Is this dangerous? Yes/No. Do I think Alex is crazy? Yes/No (maybe comes from answering yes and no to the same question). Philosophy is creative and the philosophic brain asks all questions that can't be answered by the science brain. Who, what, when, where, why, and how are the questions asked by the philosophical brain. Note the answers to these questions are creative: Why? Because that is the law. Observe that the w5 and how cannot be answered with yes or no, and the scientific brain cannot comprehend the questions of the creative brain. Telekinesis is the ability to manipulate all things physical, property of the scientific brain. Telepathy is the skill to manipulate all things thought, property of the philosophical brain. Everything in our universe is either science or philosophy. A rock, time: science. Tender, democracy: philosophy. The mix of the two creates the rest of things in existence contained within the human universe, such as the arts and emotions.
Everything in the universe comes down to one of three principles, science, philosophy, and the mix of the two. The two sides of the human brain are logic and creative, respectively, science and philosophy. Science is all that is physical, a rock, a tree, fire, and even time (as one approaches the speed of light, time for the traveler slows, thus time can be bent by speed and is physical). Philosophy is all things thought, democracy, tender. Each on its own is emotionless; it is either a physical entity or a basic thought. When we combine science and philosophy we get the arts. Music - sound waves (science) mixed with a meaning using words (philosophy), it invokes emotion, love it, hate it, whatever you will. Art - colours mixed with self-expression or an idea of what is beautiful invokes emotion. Poetry, philosophy used to describe something physical, or emotional usually with the description of something physical-and in a format that forms a logical pattern (mathematics, and natural sciences form patterns and is appealing to the logical brain). The two sides of the human brain work independently to form an emotion through the combination of two distinct types of thoughts, logical thoughts, which, like science, are law dependant, Boolean, it is or it isn't, true or false, yes and no - just like the physical laws of the universe. The philosophical side to the brain is true to philosophy and asks whom, what, where, when, why, and how...it's debatable and creative. A logical thought and a creative thought combine in the brain to create an emotion. Let’s examine fear: A rock is thrown at you; the first thought is logical, “Is this dangerous?” The answer is yes. The creative thought is “What will happen to me?” and one imagines the consequence of the action. The two thoughts combine and you become afraid of the danger that will cause a predictable harm. Persons trained in combat instinctively ignore the philosophical brain and perceive the danger and take that thought directly to the decision making center of the brain (they don't ask "what will happen to me" they just act out of second nature) and find an efficient, calculating, logical solution to the problem, and step out of the way of the projectile, never involving emotion. Note: these thoughts may take place on a conscious or sub-conscious level.
End Result Emotion.
End Result Emotion occurs after the prerequisite of an emotional response has been fulfilled. When one experiences an emotion for the first time, this means under a certain circumstance rather than the first time that emotion has been felt, a set of conditions, specifically a logical and creative thought process combining, must be met. For example, a family member passes away. The logical thought is “Can this person really be deceased?” The answer is yes. This leads to a philosophical thought such as why, how, and when did this person pass on. This starts the grieving process as these questions help ease the sufferer’s burden of reality. After this End Result Emotion can take place. When the person in question thinks of the deceased family member, the emotional process skips over the previously asked questions and seeks an emotional response that is the same emotion that was experienced previously, the end result of the subjects initial questions. This is why the term accessed is used, since it does not create a new emotion, but rather accesses a dormant emotion within the psyche. A good example of ERE is hearing your favorite song on the radio. The first time you hear it you satisfy the two thought processes to create an emotion relating to the music. The second time you hear it, on the first note your brain recognizes instantly that you like this song, and for whatever reason you find it appealing thus bypassing the required elements and takes you straight to an emotional reaction, the same feeling that you felt the first time. This may fade over time as you hear the song time and time again, the subconscious updates respective to your new thoughts regarding the music until the emotion changes or is diminished.
This is the story of schizophrenia, believing that I was a telepath. I talked in that had feelings for, telepathy being my only mode of communication. The song is Glycerine, by Bush.
Must be your skin that I'm sinking in
Must be for real cause now I can feel
I never was able to get any proof, and I doubted that the telepathy was real, until I felt her skin, her ear specifically, as it differed from my own, the earlobe connects at the side, mine does not.
and I didn't mind
it's not my kind
not my time to wonder why
I believed we were special, the roots of the universe, science and philosophy. The natural ability of philosophy is telepathy, the natural ability of science is telekinesis I believed that she was the natural telepath, but for some reason I possessed it instead of telekinesis, but didn't ask why.
everything's gone white
and everything's grey
I closed my eyes one day, and the darkness faded to white, and then I saw a silhouette of
a man on a park bench, a portrait, and it was all grey.
now your here now you away
I believed that any attempt to get proof would change time so that I never spoke with her,
the resulting action being if I never spoke she never took action, thus she would go from
being in one location to another, different cities, instantaneously.
I don't want this
remember that
I'll never forget where you’re at
When I first got telepathy, I wanted to give it back, I told her that it was a burden, a responsibility that I didn't want. However, I had it, so I used it, and kept track of her everywhere, always knowing where she was.
don't let the days go by
glycerine
I didn’t decipher the meaning to this until much later.
I'm never alone
I'm alone all the time
I spoke telepathically often, in fact I couldn't turn it off. So I would isolate myself, not being able to have two conversations at once, and I was never alone, but alone all the
time.
are you at one
or do you lie
She always lied.
we live in a wheel
where everyone steals
Refers to an image that I had constructed in my mind about my views of business; about changing the way business is done. I had imagined the corporate world as a wheel, with money in the center and business at the end of the spokes, reaching in and stealing as much money as they could get their hands on. This was in response to a venture that was very important to me, as it would tie our two families together by being in the same industry.
but when we rise it's like strawberry fields
Another image reference. I had depicted our deaths as two souls rising from a plane of sparkling souls, all of the human race, artistically viewed, rising from strawberry fields.
If I treated you bad
you bruise my face
I was sympathetic to motions, could feel her every move. I used to yell at her constantly, and she would grit her teeth when I did so. I would also grit my teeth, which aggravated a toothache, and bruised the left side of my face.
couldn't love you more
you got a beautiful taste
Not positive on the meaning of this yet, I have an idea, but since I'm not sure so it will remain unexplained.
don't let the days go by
could have been easier on you
I was really hard on her and regretted it.
I couldn't change though I wanted to
Refers to a time when schizophrenia was setting in, I didn't believe yet that I was telepathic. I wrote her, but knew I still wasn't good enough to be with her.
could have been easier by three
our old friend fear and you and me
I wrote her several letters anonymously, by the third she asked me my name, but I was bound by fear of rejection and would not tell her.
glycerine (repeat)
don't let the days go by
glycerine
It was when I realized the part about the letters was about us, I began to decode this song. However, I didn't know what glycerine was about. Soon afterwards she told me she was infected with HIV. The song clicked: don't let the days go by, glycerine. It was the cure. I researched and could not find anything, until I closed my eyes one day and had a vision of a bar of glycerine soap with a strip of bacon in the middle of it. This spawned my research into pigs and HIV. Soon I was hospitalized, and I had paid attention to the voices’ sentence structure and diction and had come to the conclusion that indeed, the voices were a product of my own mind. Overnight, without medication, I ceased hearing voices, and have never heard them since. I abandoned my research believing that it would be fruitless.
I needed you more
when we wanted us less
I could not kiss just regress
I was on the fringe of insanity, still, my medication actually intensified my symptoms, and I felt as if I were driving her insane with my constant presence in her mind. I was deaf, but not dumb, and it was decided that for her sake it would be better if we didn't speak, but feelings still lingered.
it might just be
clear simple and plain
that's just fine
that's just one of my names
Fast forward two years, I decided to try speaking with God. He told me that I was not well, and I abandoned all of my notions of love and grandeur. I would become known in heaven, hearing now the notions of people's thoughts, the basic idea i.e. think of jumping in your subconscious or even conscious level the action of jumping is present as a thought, what it is to jump, that's what I hear. With the ability to speak to people in the afterlife, I came to be known as Rataan, the Heavenly word for telepath, (game of 20 questions to find that out). I was recently reminded of glycerine, and how it may be clear simple and plain, the cure is transparent, simple and plain, and now I have more than one name.
don't let the days go by
could've been easier on you
glycerine
Don't let the days go by, God's charge, this song, a message and a modern day miracle, this is what is at stake here, everything I have believed in the past 2 years comes to a head with PCD8 (The NIH is looking into this so I won't include the research). I find out if I am a telepath or a schizophrenic.
Schizophrenia is a disease, which affects glucatory, auditory, olfactory, sensory, and visual senses. In my time in the hospital, I met Elise, a paranoid schizophrenic who was re-committed due to a visual hallucination in which Lucifer walked into her room and could only be distinguished as false if she were to try and physically grasp him. I myself was subject to these affects, the first night in the hospital I saw a spinning disc fly around the room, and just two months ago, in a half-sleep stupor, clawed at my walls trying to touch a vision of my older brothers, as children, playing together. In the past there have been schizophrenics, such as Joan of Arc, whom saw the gates of heaven before her that only she could see, and heard voices that only she could hear, (btw, nice girl *w00t Joan!*). Schizophrenia is not a disease but a gift. A gift so powerful that it drives the bearer insane. In modern terms, if one were able to project their imagination in front of their eyes as schizophrenics do, only to their will, it would be called Evolution. But as such a person, able to use telepathy (not such a far stretch of imagination now that we see what we are capable of), I tell you that it is not Evolution, but the work of God. *Mind you I don't mean to press my beliefs on others but it's a package deal.
Obviously since the future written in the Bible can't take place if I know the cure for HIV, I offer an explanation. Two years ago I realized something about time, it is physical, which is indicated by the passage of time slowing down as one approaches c. I also came to understand that earthly thoughts are embedded in time, grounded by a neuron firing in the brain, a thought is physical, on earth, but not in Heaven. Heaven is another dimension in which time has no physicality, rather it runs parallel to time on earth but has no true meaning, and gives birth to eternity. Thoughts in Heaven are created without a neuron firing, they exist in their own dimension, outside of time- but linked to a moment in time in the physical universe. Once I had grasped this I became a very powerful telepath, with the ability to find thoughts that occurred between two points in time. By holding two moments in time, and all that lay between, in my head, I was able to locate thoughts that occurred between points A and B. It was with this that I came to wonder if I could read thoughts from the future, and that I did. Having an understanding for the flow of time to the past, I did a counter process into infinity. The ebb of time, however, was too vast, peering into infinity I had no ground for a specific moment in time, thus was unable to read thoughts as I did not know when point B occurred, it could be 2 minutes or 2 decades from A. I then came up with the solution, read God's mind for a specific thought, a thought that would only occur once throughout all time, Him telling Jesus that it is the end, as in the Bible, Jesus speaks that only the Father knows when the end occurs, and that he will not be told until the event arrives. It worked. I now had point B in the future, and that’s when I made my greatest revelation. People in Hell gnash their teeth, a complimentary condition of residence there....Using point B and the few second window it allowed me (the length of time that it took God to speak to Jesus) I wore the faces of people on the street, and the stars of the world, and most gnashed their teeth. It was then that I realized God's future was dependant on a choice. The choice to believe is not predestined; if it were there would be no right in sentencing people to an anguishing fate. Thus I saw that God's future had to take place in order for me to change it. To realize that I had to see the future as it is written in order to conclude that one different choice could change the way events unfold-opened up a new door for my destiny and me. All I had to do was make a different choice one that could change the world forever. At the moment I understood, I made that choice, and the result was that no one in the future gnashed his or her teeth. The choice was to eradicate all conversation with Lucifer, and to never speak with him again.
This is what happened on God's end. He foresaw the future and prophesized it in the Bible, however, sometime later, he grew curious as to the minor events that would take place. Pouring over the period of time in His present to the end of humanity, he found that there would be a telepath who would speak with Him. Seizing the opportunity, he wrote a song, Glycerine, and a few others, that would shape my future. In the previous timeline I eventually spoke to God without any inclination from messages hidden in music. However, I never proved I was telepathic and the end took place as it normally would. Deciding to change this, working with man in His mysterious ways, He designed my life to come to a moment. The future as written still took place, up until the point when He tells Jesus that it is the end. He planned that after that moment there would be a timeline shift, as if someone were to snap his or her fingers and suddenly alter reality. This was the moment in time, in the future, that His plan is realized. The result was that His future would take place until the second I concluded that it could be changed. Basically, the future couldn't change unless it took place. A leads to B, B changes A, A now leads to C. C always existed; B overlapped it until I discovered choice. After God found me He looked past B and found C, after the decision to change A had been made, and waited for the results.
*A brief explanation of choice*
Lets say you're playing Rock Paper Scissors...Your deciding your next move, no matter how many times you change your mind your choice is inevitable. For arguments sake you lose. Hindsight is always 20/20, now you see what you should have played in order to win. However, the choice has already been made and cannot be changed. This is destiny. This is where foresight comes into play. If you had the intent of playing rock and could read the future to see that your opponent would play paper, you would now be able to change time. By having the intent to make an action and use foresight to see the end result of said action before the event occurs, you can shape destiny. By experimenting with different intents I was able to watch the future change and that is how molding time is possible.
God won't tell me anything about HIV or the future, including developing telekinesis. The basis of my decision to not talk to Lucifer was that he would inhibit the onset of telekinetic powers, based on the fact that whenever I spoke with him he inhibited my rather powerful telepathic abilities and rendered me incommunicado to everyone but himself, almost as if he possessed me to a certain extent. It was the belief that he would do the same with telekinesis, a thought I came to AFTER "seeing" God's future that I decided to hide from him. Much later I came to "hear" the name Rataan, and was reminded of my quest to cure HIV. How I change the future is uncertain, perhaps the advent of Rataan and HIV lead to this email, I don't know. All I can say is that the future has changed.
A full year before I spoke with God I tried 'magic mushrooms' (telepathy was induced by regular use of marijuana). Three days later I was in a bar and attempted to move a cigarette with my mind. The cigarette was held in an ashtray with a firm grip. At a forty-degree angle I concentrated to no avail. The second I gave up, it moved down to a 25-degree angle then up to a 60-degree slant in rapid succession (this took place within one second, immediately retreating up after going down.) No one saw this, and I didn't make mention of it, rather I tried it again. The original effort had a flaw. The length of the butt and the length of the filter were equal, which posed a probability of a fluke, so I smoked the cigarette so that the filter was twice the length of the butt, and placed in the ashtray on a 45. Again I concentrated to no success, and the second I gave up the cigarette moved up to a 60-65 degree angle. I've kept silent about this until today.
I believe that I retained some telekinesis from that day, and with it am able to manipulate thoughts through time. Time is physical, I postulate that it exists within every nook and cranny of the universe, inside rocks and trees and space. Approaching c creates a bubble around the traveling object, which explains why the passage of time slows for the object, but the rest of the universe ages normally. This lead to an epiphany that thoughts created in the universe are embedded in time, by a neuron firing. Thoughts created in Heaven are not, we don't use a brain there and are essentially beings of pure thought. This type of thought has no physicality and is not a part of time, since time does not exist in Heaven. Time is physical, and in Heaven time runs parallel to time on Earth, but is not a part of it. Thus thoughts created in Heaven exist in their own dimension but take place at a moment in time in the physical universe. This gave me the ability to remove thoughts from a person's head, from the present into the past, Heaven and Hell alike, by detaching a process from a moment in time. Treating time as something tangible, (as I can with my mind, or by approaching the speed of light), and by feeling a Heavenly thought, I tug at it and displace it out of time and its native dimension. So, armed with this ability, I removed everything I had ever said from Lucifer, and decided to never speak with him again, which lead to the future C.
The two sides to the human brain, as we know them, are logic and creative. I believe that they are more aptly named science and philosophy respectively, though we should not forget the basic function. Science as we see it today is all things physical. Things are or they aren't, physics. True or false, yes or no, i.e. Boolean. In respect to the human mind, the scientific brain asks questions in this form. Is this dangerous? Yes/No. Do I think Alex is crazy? Yes/No (maybe comes from answering yes and no to the same question). Philosophy is creative and the philosophic brain asks all questions that can't be answered by the science brain. Who, what, when, where, why, and how are the questions asked by the philosophical brain. Note the answers to these questions are creative: Why? Because that is the law. Observe that the w5 and how cannot be answered with yes or no, and the scientific brain cannot comprehend the questions of the creative brain. Telekinesis is the ability to manipulate all things physical, property of the scientific brain. Telepathy is the skill to manipulate all things thought, property of the philosophical brain. Everything in our universe is either science or philosophy. A rock, time: science. Tender, democracy: philosophy. The mix of the two creates the rest of things in existence contained within the human universe, such as the arts and emotions.
Everything in the universe comes down to one of three principles, science, philosophy, and the mix of the two. The two sides of the human brain are logic and creative, respectively, science and philosophy. Science is all that is physical, a rock, a tree, fire, and even time (as one approaches the speed of light, time for the traveler slows, thus time can be bent by speed and is physical). Philosophy is all things thought, democracy, tender. Each on its own is emotionless; it is either a physical entity or a basic thought. When we combine science and philosophy we get the arts. Music - sound waves (science) mixed with a meaning using words (philosophy), it invokes emotion, love it, hate it, whatever you will. Art - colours mixed with self-expression or an idea of what is beautiful invokes emotion. Poetry, philosophy used to describe something physical, or emotional usually with the description of something physical-and in a format that forms a logical pattern (mathematics, and natural sciences form patterns and is appealing to the logical brain). The two sides of the human brain work independently to form an emotion through the combination of two distinct types of thoughts, logical thoughts, which, like science, are law dependant, Boolean, it is or it isn't, true or false, yes and no - just like the physical laws of the universe. The philosophical side to the brain is true to philosophy and asks whom, what, where, when, why, and how...it's debatable and creative. A logical thought and a creative thought combine in the brain to create an emotion. Let’s examine fear: A rock is thrown at you; the first thought is logical, “Is this dangerous?” The answer is yes. The creative thought is “What will happen to me?” and one imagines the consequence of the action. The two thoughts combine and you become afraid of the danger that will cause a predictable harm. Persons trained in combat instinctively ignore the philosophical brain and perceive the danger and take that thought directly to the decision making center of the brain (they don't ask "what will happen to me" they just act out of second nature) and find an efficient, calculating, logical solution to the problem, and step out of the way of the projectile, never involving emotion. Note: these thoughts may take place on a conscious or sub-conscious level.
End Result Emotion.
End Result Emotion occurs after the prerequisite of an emotional response has been fulfilled. When one experiences an emotion for the first time, this means under a certain circumstance rather than the first time that emotion has been felt, a set of conditions, specifically a logical and creative thought process combining, must be met. For example, a family member passes away. The logical thought is “Can this person really be deceased?” The answer is yes. This leads to a philosophical thought such as why, how, and when did this person pass on. This starts the grieving process as these questions help ease the sufferer’s burden of reality. After this End Result Emotion can take place. When the person in question thinks of the deceased family member, the emotional process skips over the previously asked questions and seeks an emotional response that is the same emotion that was experienced previously, the end result of the subjects initial questions. This is why the term accessed is used, since it does not create a new emotion, but rather accesses a dormant emotion within the psyche. A good example of ERE is hearing your favorite song on the radio. The first time you hear it you satisfy the two thought processes to create an emotion relating to the music. The second time you hear it, on the first note your brain recognizes instantly that you like this song, and for whatever reason you find it appealing thus bypassing the required elements and takes you straight to an emotional reaction, the same feeling that you felt the first time. This may fade over time as you hear the song time and time again, the subconscious updates respective to your new thoughts regarding the music until the emotion changes or is diminished.
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