I’m just wondering how much all this “extinguishing of self” is possible.
It appears like just another attempt to escape life’s miseries, associated with self.
An overcoming of self for selfish reasons, so to speak.
For me existence condemns one, if you could call it that, to self or to the pursuit of self.
We are forever trying to Be - a Becoming. We are never self or complete but a process.
I am what I strive to be.
Sometimes this Becoming manifests itself with a desire to cease, a Freudian death-wish, where one wants to stop Becoming and simply Be.
To Be is to Be complete and inert and stable and timeless (therefore also spaceless – no dimensions, no matter).
The definition of stopping Becoming is death, but here it is insinuated that consciousness persists even after one ceases - the notion of the living-dead, vampirism, the eternal but yet still conscious - paradise, nirvana.
This is a mental trick. The mind is attracted to the completion, the finality, the end of suffering implied but it still wants to keep consciousness.
The attempt is made to seperate suffering - Need - from Life. But life is a manifestation of this Need. It is Need animated and made conscious.
A God is devised - that which is complete yet still wants and needs and creates: oxymoron.
Consciousness is a tool for survival. Its only purpose is to facilitate Becoming, by seeking total fulfillment- and it loses it once a completion is assumed.
Life is never totally fulfilled or else it becomes obsolete. Life is forever in Need.
The perfect, the inert, the complete has no need for consciousness (it has no need for anything), it is and has all that it Needs- Need ceases and along with it Suffering.
Consciousness being the product of universal flux, of temporality, and interpreting it as suffering, becomes obsolete once life/suffering ceases or are rendered complete.
The fulfilled requires no self-awareness. There is nothing to become aware of. Self is whole.
The end of suffering is the end of living.
Consciousness is inexorably linked to suffering and life.
Life is an oxymoron when it ceases changing and suffering. It is meaningless as a concept.
So, God must be illogical and unreasoned. He must be believed.
It’s one of those mind games humans play with themselves where they preserve what they value and avoid what they fear.
It is sometimes referred to as compartmentalization.
Victims of tragedy have been documented doing this. The victim ceases remembering the disturbing memory and hides it in its subconscious. It retains all other memories.
In the same manner a religious mind still retains its ability to reason even when creating this pocket of unreason within its psyche, so as to protect itself from the disturbing and unwanted. Selective reasoning.
It would take the hypocrisy of a religion to accomplish this mental acrobatic feat. No logic required, just blind faith guided by hope and fear.
Hope and fear being the bondages of life - the self wanting completion.
“I fear nothing, I hope for nothing; I am free” – Kazantzakis.
Freedom being the abandonment of all Need and Hope and therefore of all that binds one to Self and Life.
I am truly free when I am affected and controlled and guided by nothing.
Impossible as all absolutes are but only possible in degree.
Freedom, also being another term for power.
The powerful is indifferent to what cannot affect it or it has no need of.
The absurdity of life.
One becomes most aware and worthy of living when one loses all interest in it.
The indifference clause.
The ancient Greeks expressed it best with their comedy-tragedy dichotomy.
Dionysus and Apollo dancing in the void.