Eman...I like you already...ass.
Stryder...wow...um...this is sensitive...and I am not known for my diplomacy...but here goes...
You are going to extremely great lengths to deny the existence of a spiritual realm...lengths that may at some point take you to a place that you do not want to go...like a psychiatric hospital for example. I'm very familiar with this...this...i don't know what to call it. I'll call it a lie, yea, a lie. This lie is why my ex-husband was just recently released from his third visit to the psych ward, and is now heavily medicated and applying for disability benefits with the social security office. See, he has voices that talk to him too...in his head. I tell them that they are demons, and he says I'm crazy...and yet...
Anyway, he says that people watch him through the television, and that there is this vast conspiracy against him and his family. He thinks that people are spying on him all sorts of ways, and negatively affecting his life. In this way, he gets to blame everyone else for his problems in life...for his mistakes and failures and pain. In this way, he is held unaccountable for anything bad that happens to him or because of him or his actions. The voices in his head tell him these things. They have also told him to kill himself. They are trying to drive him crazy and they are doing a great job. And the second time he was committed, he was heading for a local highway overpass, with an intent to jump off of it.
During this miraculous thing that's happened to me, I had noticed a significant change in my ex...for the worse. He has spells where it gets worse, and then gets better for a while. The intensity of it changes. Well, during my miracle, it became very intense. He called me on the phone and told me things about what was happening to me that he had no possible way of knowing. It scared me so bad...I've never been that scared in my life. I wasn't shaking, I was convulsing. His voice was different...it wasn't even like he was talking...it sounded like he was possessed. Like something else was talking through him. This happened more than once. Every time he called during this time, he would start the conversation in tears or practically...talking suicidally, saying that he couldn't take it anymore. As soon as I would try to say anything to help...speaking the truth...telling him to talk to Jesus...to pray...he would immediately become so hateful and beligerent. He spoke the most vile and hideous things to me...and crazy things. And he wouldn't let me get a word in at all. And I would end up having to hang up on him. And I would have to call back and tell him that I love him, and then hang up again. Cause I wanted to make sure that he knew...no matter what. Once during this time I had a message from him on my answering machine. And there were two voices. One was his...and the other was not human. They were speaking at the same time, but not saying the same thing. The other voice was hissing and almost sounded synthesized in a way...it was not human. I turned up the volume on the machine and listened to it several times...trying to make sure that it wasn't background noise from the tv or stereo or maybe he was in a bar or something...but it wasn't. It was actually my ex who was in the background, and this voice was in the foreground. I couldn't make out what it was saying, and I decided that I didn't want to know. But it sounded exactly like you would imagine a demon to sound...that's the only way I know to describe it. And yea, I deleted the message...like a dumb ass. I said "Ew, I don't want that on my answering machine", and hit the delete button...as I said...like a dumb ass.
My ex has come out of it since then...like I said, he's heavily medicated and applying for disability. But I tell him what I heard on my machine, and he thinks i'm crazy. That's what he says. In fact that's what a lot of people say about me lately. But I'm not crazy. I'm the sanest I've ever been in my entire life. And I know what I heard.
During this time, for a short time...I felt a bit threatened myself...and so it prompted me to pray for protection, and I did. So I feel as though because I have protection through christ, and because of the holy spirit...that satan tried to get to me some other way...through the ones that I love. My ex, unfortunately, was an easy target. They have been messing with him all along, but then directed their focus through him to me...trying to scare me. And they did...and so I prayed some more. And through that experience I'm no longer afraid...I've learned that I don't have to be afraid. And I also prayed for my ex. And he will be healed too...soon.
The fact is Stryder, that we do not fight our battles against things of this earth, but against spirits and principalites in the air...in the heavens. That's in the Bible, and it's true. Nothing is manifest in this world that isn't birthed from the spiritual realm first. Those voices are not of men or of the mechanics of men's creation...but of spirits...of angels. And when the voices do not speak the truth...when the fruit of the communication is rotten...then you know that they are the angels that are fallen...they are liars...murderers...yes...but not human.