So, you have to force yourself to believe in God?
Believing in God is not something I have convinced myself about (you misunderstood me). But I don't know if I can even say that I believe in God because I think God is just consciousness.
We don't have to believe in a God to have our wishes become reality. We just have to believe that thoughts create reality. A belief in God is just a helpful tool (if you understand religion and God) to put more focus on our wish. "God" does exist, but it's just... us...
What I am reading is that itt is a conscious decision you make to believe in God, then you must perform these rituals to manifest that desire to believe into being.
We can learn to choose most things consciously (like beliefs) simply by focusing our thoughts on them.
If believing in God is something that you must convince yourself of, THEN you have certain actions you perform in order to force that thought into a reality, I don't understand why you make that conscious decision in the first place, because it quite obviously is counter-intuitive and does not align with your thoughts and core beliefs, because you have to make yourself believe it.
Core beliefs may be "wrong".
But we can't convince ourselves about anything if we don't first believe in what we want to "convince" ourselves about. When we start convincing ourselves about something, we already believe (the seed has already been planted), so we're not trying to convince ourselves, rather, our belief is in the process of becoming stronger.
I am not trying to play games here, and I am not saying anyone's belief is right or wrong, because I simply don't know myself.
What belief is right and wrong depends on who you are. My beliefs don't have to be right for you (because we're not the same person)