i do feel like i've been protected now but i couldn't have realized that before i knew about god. i was always too afraid to off myself, though interestingly enough not too afraid to have an abortion. figure that one out.
what else is there to do but survive? it's what everyone does.
Not those that commit suicide.
Lori, you should have the common sense to know that your body was made to live, and to resist dying.
Just an example, if for whatever reason your brain were to stop sending a signal to the heart to beat the heart has a small piece of tissue ontop of it that will make it beat, sort of like a mini pacemaker.
And if for some completely weird reason that the backup fails there is another one located at the bottom of the heart that can function for a decent amount of time.
If for some reason your lungs are not breathing your brain can force them to respirate temporarily.
Your hands have five fingers each, you can lose two of those fingers before it even becomes a problem, and you can still maintain some functionality with just one hand and two fingers left.
Did you know that if I were to sedate you and cut out two thirds of your liver that you would survive? And that it would actually begin to regrow itself.
You can lose a kidney and your other kidney can still function well enough to filter the blood.
Lori, your body and your brain are made specifically to keep you alive. Do you think it completely unreasonable that there is some sort of fundamental instinctual command in your brain to do whatever it can to survive? And that you can only ever bypass that command under the most extreme of circumstances?
That is the sort of thing that increases the rate at which your heart beats, its the sort of thing that releases adrenaline when need be.
Lori, if you actually believe that the only reason your alive is because B-d is watching over you because your so much more special then the other 6 billion people in this world then you must be delusional. Especially because 1.7 billion of those people are desperately clinging to life in their impoverished state and almost all of them are smart enough to not want to bypass the instinctual need for survival.
Lori, 1.7 billion people out there need G-d's help infinitely more then you, if by some silly miracle you are right. Then it only serves to proves how screwed up god's priorities are. You don't deserve to have him 'communicate' to you.