Your personal attacks do nothing to destroy the Theory.
The Theory lives on!
I don't think Blue was attacking you, I know for certain that he's empathetic towards people who he believes are deluded. He merely asks a question as an outside or professional would because he doesn't necessarily know any different. Although in this particular case, I don't think he needs to consider any differences... here's a breakdown why:
The mind portal.... Okay where do I begin, firstly you are claiming that a spinning wheel with some doodles opens some magic mind portal to bizarre extraordinary things, in reality you should take an film quote and dissect it:
"Do not try to bend the spoon; that's impossible. Instead, only try to realize the truth. [What truth?] There is no spoon. Then you'll see, that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself." - Spoon boy from The Matrix
In your case, you've create a wheel (Spoon) and you are claiming to Bend your mind because of the wheel. What you aren't taking into account is that your own characteristically individual mind is what is causing this "bending" and the wheel isn't necessary apparatus but a construct to formulate some form of reasoning too.
This is why your Portal will only work for you and anyone you
Indoctrinate. Yes, that word is usually used when referring to cult groups and I'm hoping you aren't on the path of trying to convert people to mirror your mindset, otherwise I can see someone rising up on a watch list.
Method.
List of methods and objects used.
This is a general list of what methods, concepts, and tools where used in the experiment.
1. The tools for the experiment require a graphed time map that provides an attracted canvas for keeping track of time or recording other information into a spinning format.
2. Pens, colors, and drawing equipment.
3. A journal for keeping track of what one does through out the day.
4. A coded system of information; in this case a coded day journal.
5. A spinning platform, for the spiral graph map.
In the case of this experiment the name of this Mind Portal design is the Dharma Flower Calendar, which is used to provide a spiral graphed color of well-prepared proportions to allow space for information and a large 3-foot circumference size to make observing easier.
"What tangled webs we weave."
Again as mentioned with the dissection of the Spoon boy quote, all these pieces of "Apparatus" are constructs which you've put forwards to make sense or control your Fantasy/Reality/Delusion. You don't need any of those things, if anything those materialistic additions are holding any realisation process back, so lose them and lose the wheel.
"It's not the wheel and materialised apparatus that bends, But you yourself."
As for a lot of realisations you've had, most point to Schizophrenic tendencies, perhaps even Autism (Considering the nature of your Apparatus/Constructs) This is why people will comment at your potential use of medicine because they see you as having a Mental disorder. Admittedly they might think the drugs will correct the problems, however I know as I'm sure you do those drugs are just Pharmaceutical Lobotomise. In essence the only way you can beat such a disorder is to lock horns with it and work it out yourself, but this by no means suggests you should do it alone or not accept help.
I'd suggest choosing Psychology over Psychiatry, unless of course it's concluded that you have a physical neurological defect that requires treatment.
You might not agree with that, however I still suggest you look very closely at your wheel being a delusion, a construct, a lie constructed by your mind to make some rationality about what you do naturally. Since it's just you that see's your own perspective, it is the main reason why no one is truly interested in your wheel, because only you are affected by it.
