The point I was trying to make:
God has affected my only one life
And I don't believe in him
Which is unfair
So if he was real
How would he make it up to me?!
If he were real, he wouldn't need to make up anything, since foregoing sexual pleasure was the very, very least you owed him for being born (pht, pht!) female. If he were real, he would never like you, no matter how humble and devoted you pretended to be. If he were real, he would nobody anything, and everybody would owe him everything. There is no possibility of a god being unfair, because whatever a god says is, by definition, right and good. If he were real, he would tell you tell you to shut up and repent of your rebellion.
Okay? So, get over being mad at somebody who wouldn't ever answer you even if he could, and get on with you only one life.