If it is true that if God exists, has created me and my true happiness is only with him, then this means God has the upper hand in everything, and so it ultimately does not matter what I do.
If doesn't matter what I do, then everything I do is for naught, and I am doomed.
Yes.
what if god couldn't be truly happy without you too? i'm asking because that is why the bible says that god created us...for communion with him and each other. not to have the upper hand necessarily. it's just inherent in being the creator. give him a break right? and if he made you to live in a paradise and he always acts in your best interest, does that really sound so awful? and it only limits you with the knowledge of law, and balance, and perfection. what if you always had free will and choose what is best? i believe that's what our lives are for here and now...to learn the difference. and i honestly personally would not want to live my entire life alone. i would see absolutely no point in existing if entirely alone. it's been my personal experience that loneliness and isolation are the most painful things in life. there's a reason it's considered to be a torture you know. if you were god, would you want to exist in isolation?