Bells,
I'm so sorry for what you are going through...it sounds horrible...I'm so sorry. There is no way that those people could possibly know Jesus...no way they are born again. I mean, I know that just because you're born again, you don't turn into some perfect person, and you don't learn everything you need to know overnight, but you do receive knowledge of the nature of Christ, and that is not it...what those people are showing you is definitely not Christ. If they knew Jesus, He would have them so convicted over what they are doing to you that they wouldn't be able to lift their faces off of the floor. The love of Jesus is the opposite of what those people are showing you...He is nothing like that...nothing like them...and would never, ever condone such behaviour...never. I'm so appalled...and it pisses me off so bad. They are misrepresenting the greatest, most beautiful unconditional love. And in doing so, turning people who don't know any better away from their Father...their Saviour. What they are doing to you is worse than any other sin they could possibly commit...worse than murder. For what they do does not attempt to kill the flesh, but to kill the spirit. Maybe someday you can be a witness to them of the true love of God...love that they obviously have never felt, else they could never treat you the way they are treating you. It's important to me that you know that they are wrong...they are so wrong. I know Jesus, and they don't, and they are wrong for doing what they're doing.
Would you consider reading Revelation ch 17-18?
Here is just a bit...17:3-6...
"Then the angel carried me away in the Spirit inot a desert. There I saw a woman sitting on a scarlet beast that was covered with blasphemous names and had seven heads and ten horns. The woman was dressed in purple and scarlet, and was glittering with gold, precious stones and pearls. she held a golden cup in her hand, filled with the abominable things and the filth of her adulteries. This title was written on her forehead:
MYSTERY
BABYLON THE GREAT
THE MOTHER OF PROSTITUTES
AND OF THE ABOMINATIONS OF THE EARTH.
I saw that the woman was drunk with the blood of the saints, and the blood of those who bore testimony to Jesus. When I saw her, I was greatly astonished."
If you read further, I wonder if you could tell what Babylon is? It is the Vatican. The Vatican is singled out in this scripture because the antichrist...the man who will be...will rise to power from and over a revived Roman Empire. It sounds to me as if the Vatican will support him, and that he will proceed to use her like the cheap whore that she is, and destroy her. Though for the purposes of our discussion here, it doesn't make sense to point to one particular denomination of organized religion over another, because within any, there are those who are sincere and who are born again and who know and love Jesus, and there are those who do not. Unfortunately, far more of the latter. And in the latter, an evil spirit resides and manipulates and influences. I've heard this spirit called Jezebel before. This is the spirit that operates within organized religion and influences those who do not know Christ, and have insincere intentions, to take His name in vain and witness falsely of Him to others...others like yourself. Jezebel is a mother because it is she who bears the spirit of the antichrist like a woman bears a child.
"And people wonder why I feel repulsed at even the thought of 'believing'..."
Do you see what I'm talking about? I do not wonder why you feel repulsed.
What is a prostitute? Someone who sells a cheap substitute for true love...someone who sells a false love...a love that is a lie.
Firstly, this Jezebel spirit gets its power when organized religion is used as a cheap substitute for the real deal...which is to be truly born again of the Holy Spirit and to have a person relationship with Jesus. That is what I mean by "Go to church? I am the church!" A church and the church are in no way shape or form the same thing. I am the church because my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit...my body...not some building.
Secondly, the love of Christ is not for sale. I don't care how many hail Mary's you say, or how much money you tithe or offer. The truth is that there is nothing that you could ever do or not do that would make Jesus love you any more or any less than He already does right now, and always has and always will...period...and that is more than is humanly possible to comprehend...see...it is truly unconditional and pure. These blasphemers would have you think that you have to eat, breathe, walk, talk, and shit just like they do, or else Jesus won't love you. Trust me please...and listen to me when I tell you that they are liars...and they do not know the love of Christ, and that is why they do not bear witness of it. Jesus loves you just the way you are. He even loves them, though when they doth protest judgement, claiming to have done this and that in His name, He will say to them "I never knew you." Man is not saved by his own works, but by Jesus Christ Himself.
Thirdly, as I said before, they are witnessing falsely of Him and of His love. They are not even the ones offering a cheap substitute...they are offering hate, judgement, and condemnation. It is the antichrist that comes to you after they get done, and offers you the cheap substitute. Jesus is the opposite of what they are showing you. He is love. God is love. Judgement is nothing but the truth shown in love...and there is no condemnation in Christ...none whatsoever...only redemption and restoration.
Please don't believe these lying bastards...they are not His children...they are lost and they do not know their Father. Do you know why? Because they don't want to, that's why. After all, they are too busy judging and threatening and condemning you to have time to seek Him. They don't want to seek Him. They want to take pride in themselves...they want to be holier than thou...they want to by right...they want to be good...they want to pretend. So let them pretend, but please don't believe them...and please do not let them hurt you...do not for one minute give any credence to the vile filth that they are spewing at you.
I'm so sorry. I wish...I wish so much that everyone knew what I know...that everyone could know Him like I do. I wish that I could do something...say something that would allow you to know Him. And I can do one thing...that is pray...which I have come to find is the most powerful thing!!! But I can not make you seek the truth...I can not make you or anyone seek the truth about Him....from Him...seek to know Him. All I can do is tell you in all honesty that I do know Him, and tell you what He is like...and He is love.
Love,
Lori
I'm so sorry for what you are going through...it sounds horrible...I'm so sorry. There is no way that those people could possibly know Jesus...no way they are born again. I mean, I know that just because you're born again, you don't turn into some perfect person, and you don't learn everything you need to know overnight, but you do receive knowledge of the nature of Christ, and that is not it...what those people are showing you is definitely not Christ. If they knew Jesus, He would have them so convicted over what they are doing to you that they wouldn't be able to lift their faces off of the floor. The love of Jesus is the opposite of what those people are showing you...He is nothing like that...nothing like them...and would never, ever condone such behaviour...never. I'm so appalled...and it pisses me off so bad. They are misrepresenting the greatest, most beautiful unconditional love. And in doing so, turning people who don't know any better away from their Father...their Saviour. What they are doing to you is worse than any other sin they could possibly commit...worse than murder. For what they do does not attempt to kill the flesh, but to kill the spirit. Maybe someday you can be a witness to them of the true love of God...love that they obviously have never felt, else they could never treat you the way they are treating you. It's important to me that you know that they are wrong...they are so wrong. I know Jesus, and they don't, and they are wrong for doing what they're doing.
Would you consider reading Revelation ch 17-18?
Here is just a bit...17:3-6...
"Then the angel carried me away in the Spirit inot a desert. There I saw a woman sitting on a scarlet beast that was covered with blasphemous names and had seven heads and ten horns. The woman was dressed in purple and scarlet, and was glittering with gold, precious stones and pearls. she held a golden cup in her hand, filled with the abominable things and the filth of her adulteries. This title was written on her forehead:
MYSTERY
BABYLON THE GREAT
THE MOTHER OF PROSTITUTES
AND OF THE ABOMINATIONS OF THE EARTH.
I saw that the woman was drunk with the blood of the saints, and the blood of those who bore testimony to Jesus. When I saw her, I was greatly astonished."
If you read further, I wonder if you could tell what Babylon is? It is the Vatican. The Vatican is singled out in this scripture because the antichrist...the man who will be...will rise to power from and over a revived Roman Empire. It sounds to me as if the Vatican will support him, and that he will proceed to use her like the cheap whore that she is, and destroy her. Though for the purposes of our discussion here, it doesn't make sense to point to one particular denomination of organized religion over another, because within any, there are those who are sincere and who are born again and who know and love Jesus, and there are those who do not. Unfortunately, far more of the latter. And in the latter, an evil spirit resides and manipulates and influences. I've heard this spirit called Jezebel before. This is the spirit that operates within organized religion and influences those who do not know Christ, and have insincere intentions, to take His name in vain and witness falsely of Him to others...others like yourself. Jezebel is a mother because it is she who bears the spirit of the antichrist like a woman bears a child.
"And people wonder why I feel repulsed at even the thought of 'believing'..."
Do you see what I'm talking about? I do not wonder why you feel repulsed.
What is a prostitute? Someone who sells a cheap substitute for true love...someone who sells a false love...a love that is a lie.
Firstly, this Jezebel spirit gets its power when organized religion is used as a cheap substitute for the real deal...which is to be truly born again of the Holy Spirit and to have a person relationship with Jesus. That is what I mean by "Go to church? I am the church!" A church and the church are in no way shape or form the same thing. I am the church because my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit...my body...not some building.
Secondly, the love of Christ is not for sale. I don't care how many hail Mary's you say, or how much money you tithe or offer. The truth is that there is nothing that you could ever do or not do that would make Jesus love you any more or any less than He already does right now, and always has and always will...period...and that is more than is humanly possible to comprehend...see...it is truly unconditional and pure. These blasphemers would have you think that you have to eat, breathe, walk, talk, and shit just like they do, or else Jesus won't love you. Trust me please...and listen to me when I tell you that they are liars...and they do not know the love of Christ, and that is why they do not bear witness of it. Jesus loves you just the way you are. He even loves them, though when they doth protest judgement, claiming to have done this and that in His name, He will say to them "I never knew you." Man is not saved by his own works, but by Jesus Christ Himself.
Thirdly, as I said before, they are witnessing falsely of Him and of His love. They are not even the ones offering a cheap substitute...they are offering hate, judgement, and condemnation. It is the antichrist that comes to you after they get done, and offers you the cheap substitute. Jesus is the opposite of what they are showing you. He is love. God is love. Judgement is nothing but the truth shown in love...and there is no condemnation in Christ...none whatsoever...only redemption and restoration.
Please don't believe these lying bastards...they are not His children...they are lost and they do not know their Father. Do you know why? Because they don't want to, that's why. After all, they are too busy judging and threatening and condemning you to have time to seek Him. They don't want to seek Him. They want to take pride in themselves...they want to be holier than thou...they want to by right...they want to be good...they want to pretend. So let them pretend, but please don't believe them...and please do not let them hurt you...do not for one minute give any credence to the vile filth that they are spewing at you.
I'm so sorry. I wish...I wish so much that everyone knew what I know...that everyone could know Him like I do. I wish that I could do something...say something that would allow you to know Him. And I can do one thing...that is pray...which I have come to find is the most powerful thing!!! But I can not make you seek the truth...I can not make you or anyone seek the truth about Him....from Him...seek to know Him. All I can do is tell you in all honesty that I do know Him, and tell you what He is like...and He is love.
Love,
Lori