So you think this is what I am doing "seeking assurance from members of this forum"?!?
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Odd that. If someone keeps a relatively low profile, displays a willingness to discuss, openly admits their fears and weaknesses, doesn't call people names, and doesn't come off as overly dogmatic - some people conclude this person must be insecure and "seeking assurance".
Or perhaps your projection of such intentions on me as you do above is some kind of reversed psychology ...
Perhaps I would need to be more in line with "the SciForums standard of discussion" in order not to be misunderstood here ...
In short, yes.
I am not a psychologist but I would classify you to some extent as an attention-seeker. I have not all that many of your posts but, from what I have read, the following comes across.
You pose a question and, having had a number of suggestions made, you thgen want to go deeper and depper, that is as you perceive it. Look at a lot of your posta and you will see that you are asking the same thing in different guises, time and again. That suggests a need for re-assurance and attention. For example, you ask a question such as " should one seek advive from others ". If you are told it is worth while to do so, you counter with somethoing along the lines of " how can I know the difference between good and bad advice ?" How can I be sure the person giving the advice is not promoting some agenda which might be harmful to my spiritual agenda ? " From this point the duscussion cn lead to people and their motivation. How does one understand one's own motives ? And so on ad infinitum.
I am not pouring scorn on you or the process of philosophical enquiry; it's more a question of your inability to act. You are in a catch 22 situation. You will not act without guarantees and you ask for guarantees which cannot be given.
Your idea of enquiry is at odds with what one normally understands by that word. You have saud words to the effect that if the notion of karma and rebirth is not true, then life is not worth living. Seventy years is nowhere long enough. So, I suggest your natural inclination is to gravitate towards the sorts of doctrines and beliefs which appear to offer what you want from life. The truth, insofar as we can know it, somehow takes a backseat.
Please believe, I am not trying to put you down. I can't provide many answers but I have lived long enough to realize that there are no certainties. If I ask someone's advice, I will eveluate it from the standpoint of whether it appears to be in my interest to accep or reject it. I do not concern myself with what motivates the other person may have.
I honestly believe that all one can do is to take one's courage in one's hands and act The alternative seems to be to put living on hold whilethe enquiry continues.
My sincere advice to you is to put all further metaphysical speculation aside for the present. Throw caution to the winds, whatever that might mean to you. and act. The outcome can be evaluated later, if you feel it is worth doing.
Try getting blind drunk, telling someone what you really think of them without fear or favour,or do something outrageous and to hell with the consequences. See what it feels like to be free. Do what you like but do something !
All the evidence I have suggests that we have one life; do not let it slip away while you are ruminating !
I have enough sense to know that everything I have said will wash over you head and that you will carry on as before.
I hope you can accept what I have said in the spirit in which it is intended.