Yazata
Valued Senior Member
Personal apotheosis.
The Greek word 'apotheosis' means 'elevation to the status of (or at least similar to) that of a god'. In Greek religion this was supposed to be possible. Unlike in the Semitic religions that gradually came to emphasize the gulf between mankind and the gods, the Greeks imagined the space between the gods and mankind as a space that could be traversed and that was populated by intermediate forms. The gods and goddesses could and did have sex with humans, and human-divine hybrids existed. The most famous of them were the 'heros', like Herakles. We see similar ideas, in much more cynical and politicized form, invoked in the deification of Hellenistic kings and subsequently the Roman emperors.
The dictionary definition aside, I liken it to just finding Jacob's ladder.
The Godhead I know in a nutshell.
I was a skeptic till the age of 39.
I then had an apotheosis and later branded myself a Gnostic Christian naturalist.
It sounds like you are talking about having experienced some kind of transformative personal religious experience.
During my apotheosis, something that only lasted 5 or 6 seconds, the only things of note to happen was that my paradigm of reality was confirmed and I was chastised to think more demographically. What I found was what I call a cosmic consciousness. Not a new term but one that is a close but not exact fit.
I recognize that I have no proof. That is always the way with apotheosis.
I don't have any argument with your belief that you have had a transformative personal religious experience. But I don't accept that your claims about your religious experience are convincing evidence regarding religious matters either.
So... when you announce: "Without a personal apotheosis, all who claim that God is real without any personal knowledge --- without a clear logic trail --- are just lying to themselves as well as others", you seem to be in danger of being caught up in your own condemnation.
Your own "logic trail" seems to originate in a private experience that may be, or in my opinion is more likely to not be, veridicial. It's not really all that different from when a conventional Christian says something like, "I just know! It's my faith!"
Nevertheless, I recognize that religious experiences do exist. I also recognize that they can be totally convincing to the people who enjoy them. No more doubts are left, in some cases at least. Direct experience - the best evidence that a person can possibly have.
The problem for all of the rest of us, all the people who are neither recipients of transformative religious experiences or afflicted by equally convincing psychotic delusions, is distinguishing when other people's totally-private and utterly-convincing experiences are objectively true in the wider universe, and when they aren't.
This line of thought leads me towards the idea that at its heart, the deepest level of religion is a fundamentally private thing. It's not something that can be conveyed to somebody else in words or in books.
But that doesn't mean that all the words and the books are "lies" either. The words simply aren't the confirming religious experience, whatever that is, assuming that it even exists. The words and the books are the expressions and the embodiments of the traditions that have grown up around those kind of experiences.