Yes, I felt the same way Q. A lot of people misunderstand the bible, and perhaps other religious text. I can't say what I thought of the bible before because it would involve lots of bad words. I used to thing God was a coward since He wouldn't show His face. Used to curse Him. Used to feel violent urges against Him. Used to ask why, why, why. And think He was an evil God, even more evil than your average person. I've admitted I haven't read the bible much since it used to make me mad to read it sometimes so just skipped around here and there. I didn't search the bible for answers or others. Most questions that I asked, most christians couldn't answer so they were as good as sheep to me. Following blindly. Until I got the nerve to confront the issue head on and not look to others for my answer. I looked to and for God. No, not in the bible, the quran or any other holy book. I found Him in science because He is logic. He is rules, Both are the same. I found Him and He gave me the book of knowledge. Not of forseeable things or reasons why certain things happened in the past, but who He is. That was all I needed. He wasn't some physical being but He was, in a way. Hard to describe. Perhaps you can say I was looney in the head but I was perhaps looney with logic. Trying to make sense of everything. It will drive you crazy. Only God can handle it. But I felt as if life and afterlife was a school, is the impression I got. Others are in line waiting to hear of God and do His work, just as a class which is packed full of students and can't take any more. Those that flunk his class will be at the very end of the line and have to take it again when their time comes around. In the meantime, they will have a while to think about wherein they failed and the mistakes they made before will only make them better next time around. And those that pass His class will graduate and move on. Where exactly, I don't think He told me. Not exactly tell but give me the impression. He told me nothing but it was in, sort of, impression form, like I fore mentioned. We all go to His class, and it may be out for the day. And out of class, you can't be expected to abide by His rules and you get a break. Meaning we are not perfect and even God gives us leeway from His rules. And I got the impression He gave me the book of knowledge, His own guide book. What He teaches class with. And that He is letting me 'take it home with me', if you will. For me to study in the off-times and to teach others. Modern man has moved on, moved up, and with higher learning, comes higher courses. With growing up, comes new rules. And God feels it is time for new rules. So many misunderstand God's words now, they mock the faithful who are willing to accept God's answer to the problem.
God gave me the impression that life's problem is a lot like the problem of pi, as I've stated before. You ask God and believe Him and His answer, and it is that easy, that it is infinite, you will always want and want and want without God. Always wanting to conquer an unconquerable problem without God because of pride and foolishness. While a man who tries to solve pi thinks he is smarter than anyone else by solving more of the equation, the wise ones are looking at him as a fool. They say, "take your head out of that paper boy". And the foolish student says, "no, I am just about there, I've just about solved the problem". And the wise reply, "look, we have found the teacher, and He gave us the answer, do you not see Him or trust Him?". And the foolish boy repeatedly ignores their words and is trapped in his own hell of infinite toil and worry trying to solve the unsolvable. And as such, God has made me a tutor of men. I will try to help those that are in need of finding Him and the answer. I have delved deep in the problem myself but to no avail. Until I looked up realized my own, this is an infinite problem with no sense of purpose, and that is what made me look up. And it is science/logic that made me realize this. What God gave us to find Him. Jesus used logic to bring many to God. That is the way. God is the God of your science, the science in which many of it's students now don't believe in God. That's why it is time for God to send a messenger. Even God's own rules of logic, people distort to try to disprove Him and His words. That has Him angered and saddened. He has emotions as we do and does anyone in here like their words tainted? And so be it, do not taint His words.