robtex said:
Lori is it a goal of yours to meet Jesus or a only a desire? I find the Christian fixation on one man fascinating. When you presented this to your fellow Christians how did they react? Do others you know have similar feelings or letters? Does your pasture or minister or priest talk about meeting Jesus too? I noticed their was a song on the radio at my old day job. A lot of the office workers there were strong Christians and they were really moved by the song which made me think they may have had ideas or notions about meeting Jesus too....the wish I knew the name of the song but it is something about a man who meets Jesus in the flesh for the first time and is in awe and falls to his knees and looks up to the sky ect..it was played alot on local country stations down here in Austin Tx.
It is a goal and a desire of mine fulfilled...as described above. The above is not something that I made up in hope, but something that I wrote to attempt to describe in words what actually happened to me. I have met Jesus...I have heard His voice and felt His presence...that's what this writing is about...that's what I'm always talking about. We have had a relationship since then, and He has taught me so much and helped me in so many ways...He is so wonderful...He is love...unconditional. This meeting and this relationship is what being born again is, and is the source of my faith and my knowledge of God. That is why I say that faith is not a belief in something that you don't know to be true, but a belief in something that you do know to be true. I know God...I know His nature because I know Him...have interacted with Him...in a relationship that has progressively built an infinite trust in Him. That trust is my faith. That knowledge and learning directly of Him and from Him is where my "beliefs" come from. That is why I'm always saying that they don't come from a book or from a man like a preacher or from an organized religious dogma of any kind. The fact that what God teaches me in person is substantiated or confirmed in scripture is only because the Bible is in fact God's Word. But for me, I do not learn it from the book, I learn it from God, and through my life experience, which He uses to teach me things. And I do not believe it because it is written, but because He explains it to me personally, and because I HAVE LIVED IT.
I can usually tell if someone who professes themselves to be a Christian is born again or not. I find that lots of people subscribe to the dogma within the realm of organized religion for lots of other reasons other than a sincere desire to know God and have a personal relationship with Him...pity...damn shame actually. The people who do not know Him have no idea what I'm talking about and the people who do know Him know exactly what I'm talking about. Trust me, when you meet Him, you know it...there is no doubt about whether or not you are born again...you know it. I can tell if someone knows Him or not based upon the things they say...how they talk about Him and what they refer to when they speak of Him. Do they refer to a personal relationship or to a dogma or an organization or organized event or a book? People who know Him speak of Him as if He is their best friend and constant companion or their Father.
I'll give you an example...If I say to someone that I am a born again Christian, and the first thing they ask me in response is, "Oh really, me too, what church do you go to?" Then I know immediately that they have no flippin' idea what I'm talking about. What church do I go to, or a discussion about organized religion in any capacity would be maybe...I don't know...47th or so on the list of relevant questions or comments that someone who knows Him would make in response to my statement. If you know Him, you know that there is so much more relevant to talk about...namely HIM! Actually, that is where my sig came from. I am a waitress at an Applebee's restaurant in some hodunk redneck town in Ohio. And I was working one Sunday afternoon...waiting on the churchies...who are by the way infamous for their impatience, gluttony, pride, and greediness...and one couple, who had just apparently come from church commented on the necklace that I was wearing. The guy said something to the effect of, "I noticed that you are wearing a cross on your necklace...are you a Christian?" To which I responded, while trying oh so hard not to roll my eyes, "Yes...born again." And he immediately asked in response, "Do you go to church?" And so I cocked my head, and wrinkled my brow, and gave him a look of utter confusion, and said, "
Go to church? I
am the church!" To which of course, he had no reply whatsoever....just sat there dumbfounded with his jaw slightly ajar...and so I went about my business. They finished their meal and left without mentioning another thing to me.
So to your next question, I do not have a minister, pastor, or priest. But if I did, I'm sure that they would speak of it. I mean, it's in the Bible all over the place. Practically everyone in the book had God speak to them or knew Jesus and interacted with Him personally. The Bible talks about being born again of the Spirit all over the place. I just also know that it's something that many people...many people involved in organized religion too...don't pay attention to, or consider metaphorically. Why? Because they don't want to have a personal relationship with Him. They don't really want to know Him. And that is the only thing that keeps them from it. Like I said, many people...if not most people involve themselves in organized religion for other reasons...selfish reasons...prideful reasons...guilty reasons. I would imagine that most people do it to make someone else happy, like their parents or their wife or husband. Or maybe because they consider it the "thing to do", like in a socially acceptable kind of way....keeping up with the Joneses. Or maybe because they think it makes them a better person...or at least to appear that way. Or maybe their lonely and just want to join a club or a group or be included in something. And I know for sure that many go to church just so they can say to themselves that they are "better" than those who do not. And like I said, it's a damn shame. Actually, it's worse than that...it's deadly and destructive. Because it's taking the Lord's name in vain, and witnessing falsely of Him. And He will say to them, "I never knew you."
Love,
Lori