Lerxst said:s0meguy:
I know EXACTLY what you are going through, your first post reads exactly like something I might say. You are not alone.
I have a book recommendation for you - a philosophy book by a brilliant mathematical/scientific/philosophical polymath, Martin Gardner, a huge personal hero of mine. He explores these same kinds of issues with much intelligence and care. Reading his book was a profound experience for me. It may not have answered a lot of questions, but it brought them into sharper focus for me.
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Damn you Lerxst. Now I have to go spend money on his book. Thanks a bunch.