W61;1290597]You mean why doesn't Jesus do what He did to Paul to you?
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M*W: I'm not quite following you here. Are you saying what Jesus did to Paul, he should have also done to me?
There was a time when I believed, but now I realize I believed blindly what others professed to me. I thought my eyes were open, but I found out they probably never were... or... that what I thought I was seeing was just an illusion. Oh, I truly believed, alright! I made a point of teaching others... so I must've believed what I taught. I knew, felt, saw, tasted, touched, smelled god... or at least that was what I wanted others to believe! But to answer your analogy, I had my own kind of revelations of god, jesus and mary... mostly mary, because I was a young mother. I identified with her, but now I know she never existed, and jesus didn't either.
Obviousness pertains to the person. What I mean is if someone walks into my school with bright neon green pants that would be obvious. The only way someone wouldn't be able to see is because their eyes are closed.
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M*W: My eyes weren't closed, exactly. I believed overtly. I practiced my faith openly. I scorched the earth trying to convert every soul I came in touch with! Now, I'm thankful I missed some!
I have never seen God, however I do see is actions. I have never heard God's voice but I have heard his teachings. I have never touched God because if I did I wouldn't let go. I have never smelled God but I imagine He smells good. I have never tasted God because I do not eat Him or plan on licking Him. I have felt Him but I don't think we mean the same. Others can not because like I said they have their eyes closed. I think He is obvious, plus I believe some would still question what they saw, touched, felt, smelled, heard, or even tasted. What I consider obvious you considered God hiding or say it is something else.
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M*W: I must say, you are eloquent in your prose. At one time, I felt that I had seen him, heard him, touched him, ate him, drank him, smelled him, got drunk in his spirit, yada yada yada, but now, I know what I had experienced was my own delusion, and I'm forever bitter about that! Not at some supposed god out there, but at own self! I was a fool! I believed what I thought everyone else expected me to believe! For a time, I denied my own intelligence! That's what's pathetic!
I do appreciate your responding to my thread. I appreciate your input. The more I move forward, the less I believe in what I believed. How many years did I waste? And for what? For nothing! The truth is not always obvious when you see it. Sometimes it can be a conflict -- even a major conflict! Get rid of all conflict and the truth becomes clearer. That's where I am today. My future is clear. I won't put anything in to my presence unless I know it is valid. What is valid to me is that there is no god. I'm comfortable with that. I can eat, drink, taste, feel, hold, comfort, and bear that feeling, because it is real.
I'm glad you are a member of sciforums. When I came here, I believed as you believe. Sciforums has been my salvation.