I can give a broad and general definition of you in an attempt to understand you, but that's hardly the point here...you are not god. If god is not an endeavor then and only wants you to figure out what you need to, then god is something that should be deeply personal, and trying to inform others of his/hers/its intentions is entirely contradictory to figuring things out on your own.
Furthermore if you cant define, quantify or see something...then for all respective purposes it does not exist.
Actually, I'm full of life that I don't understand. I am the God of my body even when I don't understand the life inside me, and even when I ignorantly do consume things that aren't good for that life inside. Ignorance is Bliss - thank God
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God has more then one deffinition, and is not fully understood, because it goes much bigger then our physical realities allow us to see.
But you don't have to use his name, or believe in him - the same source of information is within yourself whenever you're ready to accept the info without worry or fear - but I'll warn you, the gate can be intense if you aren't ready for it
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Yes we need to find our own way, but a little guidence doesn't hurt - Lori isn't gonna take your journey for you, she's just trying to open your mind to other possibilities beyond your imagination, and if your mind was free, you'd know there is a side to life that is beyond the physical - doesn't matter to me what you need to believe to know your truth, but I do like minds to be free.
And just because you can't see something, and you don't understand it - does not mean it doesn't exist - lol. That is ridiculas.
So a kid in a third world country, that has never seen a TV, never been out of his/her area, never been exposed to the rest of the world - does that mean the USA doesn't exist because this kid can't define it, and hasn't seen it?
You sound like a guy that hasn't been exposed to both sides of the world, so you still seem to think the physicalk is the only side, and that anyone that sees more then you is dellusional - LOL
I hope you find your way some day, but I ain't worried about it - we would never be able to feel and know our comfort zones without the extremes, so all the power to you - if it wasn't for the extreme logical minds, the balanced brilliant minds wouldn't exist