Deadwood,
Having had AIDS for so many years has had it's challenges, especially since I am not gay. I contracted the disease in a whorehouse somewhere in Thailand while stationed there as a U.S. Marine back in 1984-5. Very few even knew what AIDS was then, and I was a young, indestructable Marine who wasn't scared of anything. (foolish, I know).
But, needless to say, having the disease progress over the years has changed my life dramatically.
Physically, (and I'm not whining, I should have been dead a long time ago), I have lost most of the use of my right side from a complication called bilateral myalopathy, bowel and bladder control are tricky some days, mostly impotent, and my vision is failing from CMV infections. I must go into the hospital two or three times a year with pneumonia, which I have miraculously survived every time, but PCP will most likely be my downfall in the end. I've lost 80 pounds from the old days in the Corps and barely have the energy to walk around the house on a bad day. And I take about 60 pills a day plus pain medication (morphine) to keep myself functioning. The drugs are no cure, but they buy me time. Time for something better to come from the drug companies. All things considered, I'm doing pretty well. To have lived this long with AIDS, I'm just very thankful.
Emotionally, once you get over being pissed off that you got screwed in life (no pun intended), and you can stop feeling sorry for yourself while you wait to die, your perspectives all change, for the better, I think. I enjoy the time with my kids, my foster kids, so much more. I appreciate my marriage and my family more. It's made me realize that every day is a gift and don't waste it.
The non-profit organization Rita and I started has been the most rewarding "job" I've ever had, and there's no paycheck! We help families and children with AIDS here in south Florida. The need for our Foundation, The Red Ribbon Kids Foundation, became obvious to us when we realized that gay men had a huge variety of help and services avalable to them. Help with rent, free medical care, food pantries, support groups, etc. I'ts easier to have AIDS if you're gay. I don't say that in a bad way, good for them! But if you're a child or if you're working parents with a sick child, probably sick yourself as well, it can be a nightmare. But that's what we do, guide these terrified families through the process.
Off the subject, sorry. It has gotten me into the gay community more than you could imagine, and I must say that as a group and as individuals, gay men are some of the finest people I've ever known, and manyy of them would make better than average parents, despite their preferences in the bedroom.