You know, concluding that there is no soul and no God is extremely freeing. A great weight will be lifted from your shoulders.
You will realize that your path through life is completely up to you; there's no fate, no kismet, no "lot", no "deserve". There's no over-arching good or evil, there is just individual people, no more or less powerful than you. And your death will result in no horrible punishment; just eternal peace and quiet.
Of course, with freedom comes responsibility too. Your motivation for being good to your fellow man will have to come from self-discipline and character alone, and your path through life will come from hard work alone.
but life experience seems to indicate otherwise, i think there is a over-arching evil as in some conscious force. just as the idea of if you do bad, there will be 'hell to pay', the often secret truth is if you do good, there will be 'hell to pay' too. this isn't just on the physical plane where we can really witness it such as blatant examples like ISIS.
i think there is a lot of truth to the demiurge. the worst part of it is that oftentimes good people running around trying to better the world are actually better than the demiurge which is secretly working against them or don't care, indifferent to the good they do. it cares about the old, corrupt seedy ways but at the same time, it doesn't want to blow it's cover that is what is it's real opinion so it allows some pockets of good here and there so good people don't lose all hope and bad people's facades are unexposed.
everytime i have tried to do something good in a 'moral' sense, i have been punished 'unseen' like by a more powerful and stealth evil force moving events around and the loss was much more magnified in comparison. that also, again, confirms what has more power here. i could sense it palpably and viscerally.
i remember that time i stood up for myself when i was being lied to and shafted on a cell phone purchase by a shady seller and their store was investigated and they had to change their policy and were fined. though they were doing this to others all along, the seller knew it was me who blew the whistle.
shortly after this i went through hell trying to get my deposit back (legally could not because of poor laws) as well as being harassed by someone who was eerily similar to that seller, even in looks and character. i was harassed so much and an onslaught for awhile, i just knew something was awry spiritually in my life because this person seemed to come out of nowhere to have an irrational sense of unrelenting competition with me and to put me in my 'place'. then it was a few others just to drive the point home. there was a sexist, egoist undertone to this. how dare you expose using integrity. you are a nobody here. the theme seems to be when it comes to good and evil a perverted mix of attraction/covetous to a positive (fruit) strength at the same time a hatred of it (good ethics) which is required to develop/gain it and so want to degrade/destroy it. the motive to destroy good is because if evil can't be usurped or huge ego bruised if it's shown to be inferior if there is a comparison. if it is destroyed, there is no competition. it showed me, again, who has power and who god really was.
evil prospers because god will make sure his children/followers are taken care of secretly, since man's laws are higher and more ethical coming from a higher consciousness elsewhere than the demiurge. the creator of this domain views higher ethics as an invasion and example to usurp the power and entitlement of it's minions/followers as well as embarass /expose corruption. this is why it degrades ethics as if it's an egofest. those who are in league with this power/spirit are protected and gain. man's ethical idealism (stemming from a higher source) is more advanced and abstract than god/demigod. but the demigod/demiurge rules here.
i knew deep in my knowing, sense or whatever, it was as if some type of revenge was exacted through another because obviously he couldn't himself as in this is all spiritual. i also knew this wasn't enacted by the devil but THE god which is the evil and corrupt demiurge but everything was in reverse. what i got a sense of was a very spiteful message being driven home to me that if i had accepted meekly being screwed over, then i wouldn't have caught the ire of the hidden power and controller here which is evil. i lost more and more was taken than what i had gained or lost at the cell phone store. people may not think the events are not connected but i did know they were on the spiritual realm. but just as other past experiences showed me, good can just as well be punished as bad can be.
one thing i agree with is there is no good or evil here in the sense it is amoral, though here evil has an upperhand. the universe was showing me emphatically that the good values, ethics or plans of people still do not have as much power as the spiritual powers that be that work in mysterious (code for corrupt and covert) ways and can alter or pervert our ideas of 'ethics' because it is the real primordial and evil power. this is why god is considered evil by some is because evil people can always resort to the lowest actions and it be condoned by the laws of nature itself. it's the very base of existence here.
this universe is perverted in the way it operates. you can reap evil (theft, loss) for good that you sow just as well evil can reap good (benefit, gain) for the evil (pain, loss) that it sows.
the universe has been showing me that you will be punished if you do justice in the wrong place, not by man, but by the powers that be who can see all. this has to do with unseen spiritual politics and turf. this is how the spirit world works unseen or undetected by some but some are intuitive and realize it.