Medicine Hat, your story sounds like a near-death experience. Compare to others’
experiences. Can you elaborate on “the feelings leading up to getting in the yard were pretty horrid”?
I AM is a declaration of who you choose to be. God’s will is that you be who you choose to be. That means God will help you to be who you choose. That is a function of God. I AM is a prayer and God responds to all prayers in one way or another.
For example, I say I AM understanding Einstein’s theory of relativity. I say it with confidence that it
will happen, for I have been empowered by God’s
will before. I say it with thanks for this beautiful world wherein we have plenty of choices.
Then I study. God leads me to the best books, people, and resources to assist me. God offers key insights, which I accept with appreciation. I wake up each day knowing a bit more than yesterday, having dreamt of physics. It seems like I’m doing it all by myself. Soon, after pondering it for a year, I have an excellent layman’s understanding of Einstein’s theory.
It is thought that to achieve something you must first do, then have, then be. Like you work hard, then you have money, then you be happy. The opposite works better. First I AM understanding the theory, then I have the books and resources, then I do the study.
“Ask, and it shall be given to you; seek, and you shall find; knock, and it shall be opened to you.” That is God’s will stated. I AM is the knock. You have it right: God is just waiting for you to embrace it and use it for the benefit of your
being.